Running blind

[littlewill4511]

There was once this time when i knew what i wanted but anymore i don't. I always wanted to be a doctor or go further in the medical field. As i look back into my past i look at what i gained through life and what i lost in life. i gained a lot of knoiwledge that would help me in my journey through college but also i lost a lot of inspiration. I had the plan to go on to better myself and make a better living for someone else. but that other person crushed my desire to move on. Don't get me wrong i still plan to go back to college, but i don't know how i will make it through. i always had someone to help me if i needed help and was always there for me. and now i have nothng but my great friends. which i thank everyone out there for what they do for me. you are the best of friends a guy can ask for. But still that dosn't overcome my fear of failing myself. i don't want to fail myself but i have this feeling i would. before i had a desire to strive for more and i could overcome the obsticles of life but anymore i dunno. just only if i could find the answers of life and be able to move on, but i right now am Running blind. i wish life was different and i know things happened for a reason, i dunno know what i ever did to deserve what i got done to me. I know i must move on with my life and follow my dreams, but first i need to get back my inspiration for moving on. and no thta doesn't mean getting back with her. i will find a way to move on and follow my dreams, but for know i plan on building up my knowledge as a surgical tech. I plan on taking my certification exam in the near future which will allow me to leave this wonderful place called home nad start my journey to a whole another level.

For now i am goin to go

Billy