SVU - katie/elliot - fallen - PG
title: Fallen
fandom: Law & Order SVU
pairing: elliot/katie (ofc)
letter: b for blue-eyed - table # 11 for a_to_z_prompts
summary: Elliot wants an answer.
rating: PG.
word count: 1448
warnings/spoilers: None.
a/n: Katie Summers is an original character of mine who I'm pairing with Detective Elliot Stabler for my fic's in this challenge. You'll get to know more about her as you read :) SVU timeline wise is set during the time Elliot is separated from his wife; around seasons 5-7.
disclaimer: I do not own the characters of Law and Order SVU. This is purely written for entertainment only.
Inspired by the song "Ocean Blue Eyes" by The Shrimp Boat Pirates.
Fallen
It had been almost a week since Katie had been out of hospital, and Elliot knew Ben was staying with her so he had kept his distance until that weekend. The kids went with Kathy to her sister’s for a birthday party, Elliot wasn’t welcome there, and he knew that. So instead he made his way to Katie’s apartment.
She had called him in a slight panic at work during the week, saying that both Matt and Bonnie knew about them, but she believed they would both keep it a secret. He wondered why Katie was distancing herself from him, even just for this week; it was a gap that he’d noticed. He’d gotten used to her at work over the years, seeing her smile and the way she breezed through the day, and now when he glanced over at her desk and knew that she had chosen him, that he was allowed to be as intimate as possible with her... it just made him that much happier to get up in the morning.
There was something about her that he’d never felt before, something strangely new. He’d had crushes on women who had worked at the station before, hell he couldn’t deny he’d felt a little something for Olivia when they’d first been paired up; but thinking of her like that now could make him nauseous; Olivia was family. His best friend.
Katie was something else.
He wondered if it was the happiness in her eyes. Yes, she worked at a police station; but she didn’t have to physically and verbally deal with murderers, rapists and child molesters on a daily basis; her eyes didn’t have that dark cloud through them that all SVU Detectives seemed to get. They remained that innocent, pale blue of the clearest ocean; not scarred by seeing the worst of human behaviour.
Maybe it was naivety that kept her so innocent, or rather untouched, by the brutality of the world they both worked within; it was what made her so special; so coveted. She was a glimmer of light; something that proved to Elliot daily, that no matter how bad the criminal, there was still humanity in the world; still right before his eyes. She could smile on a day that Elliot would have wanted the ground to swallow him up whole.
And what he admired most was that this was just how she was. She hadn’t changed, she hadn’t adapted, and she hadn’t let the horrific details stain her life. She wasn’t blind to them; but she wouldn’t let them affect her. And not in a way that made her closed off; she was just the opposite.
Elliot couldn’t pinpoint the moment he had fallen for her. It was before their first physical encounter... before he’d even realized he’d been sexually attracted to her... surely not from the day they met... she had been so sickeningly cheerful to Elliot back then. He remembered thinking that a few months working with the scum that he dealt with day in day out and that would change her, for sure. She’d be out of there as fast as her legs would carry her.
Instead; she’d proved him wrong, something she now did almost subconsciously. Not only had she toughed it out; she’d improved the workplace, at least for Elliot. She was genuinely upbeat and positive, not something Elliot expected from a girl whose father had been murder red when she was a child, whose mother was in ill-health and with a sister who had an unpredictable wild streak... and that’s something that drew Elliot in; she was fascinating. How could she be this way? How did her mind and heart work to keep get her through the tougher days? She made him so curious... she made him think about her; without realizing it. She wasn’t overtly seductive, or flirtatious, even though with her youthful beauty she could very well have been; she was just... Katie. And he loved her.
The problem was; she loved someone else. And without even realizing that this would be his mission when he arrived at Katie’s apartment that night, knowing that Ben was probably right in the next room, he knew he had to tell her, and she had to make a decision. His divorce would be final in a few weeks now, but he and Kathy had been having problems for years, she was just the one who had finally had the balls to say enough is enough. Elliot didn’t care if it was PC for him to want Katie so soon after a divorce, even though he’d wanted her for much longer, and he didn’t care what anyone thought. Not right now; right now he wanted to know if she felt what he felt. If she didn’t...
His heart pounding, Elliot hit the doorbell, hoping that Ben wouldn’t answer. He was a nice guy, and a smart one... Elliot showing up like this might be a massive clue to a question he might already be asking... was Katie still sleeping with Ben? The thought made Elliot uncomfortable... he could understand it; as a way of keeping up appearances... but why didn’t she just leave him? Maybe she didn’t feel what he felt...
“Elliot?”
He smiled, it was Katie. “Hi,” The bruises on her face from the attack were healing well; he told her so. “Bonnie home?”
Katie clucked her tongue. “No, she’s not, I think she’s gone to stay with our mother; I haven’t heard from her since she...found out about us.” She paused. “And yes Ben’s here.” She added in a tone that revealed she knew that was the question he had wanted to ask in the first place. “He’s asleep on the couch,” She quietly stepped out of her apartment and gently pulled the door shut. “He’s been here all week...”
“I love you.” Elliot said. He wasn’t one to mince words; ramble on about his feelings. It served him no use. He said what he felt; and she would have to deal with it. “I’m in love with you. And I can’t stand this.” He gestured to her closed door, to her partner inside. “I can’t do it anymore. If you don’t love me; we’ll end it. But I won’t do this anymore.”
She looked stunned, he’d expected she might, her eyes were wide and puzzled; this was obviously the last thing she had expected to hear when she opened her front door.
“I...” She could barely get that one word out. “I... you are...”
Elliot shook his head. “Don’t answer like that. Tell me straight up, Katie. I’m not gonna tell you to take your time, make a decision while I wait around. To me this is real. You’re either in or out.” He waited; the seconds painfully ticking by in silence as Katie’s eyes just grew more and more tearful; and the longer it went on, the more Elliot had his answer. Swallowing the hard lump in his throat, Elliot managed to speak one final sentence. “Have a good night,” He said looking away from her and making a beeline for the elevator.
There. He’d done it. Laid it on the line. She said no. Well; she said nothing... and that actually felt worse.
Elliot felt some sort of numbness through his body as he rode the elevator down to the parking garage, he had to rest back against the rear of the elevator and hang onto the barrier to keep his balance, his legs felt like jelly. He hadn’t realized her rejection would do this to him... but then again he hadn’t felt this way about someone since Kathy, and that was when he was eighteen.
The elevator doors opened, forcing Elliot to use his legs and get out of here. He heard footsteps coming from his left, life on the force had taught him to be alert so he whirled around with his fists tight...
“In.” Katie said.
Elliot unclenched and registered that it was her standing before him. “What?”
“I’m in.” She smiled and took a step towards him, puffing heavily like she’d run a marathon.
Glancing over her shoulder, Elliot saw the fire escape door was wide open; she’d run down the stairs to catch him before he left. His mind was working overtime. She’d run down to stop him... to tell him that she felt the same way... their affair wasn’t just an affair. It meant something to her, too. “Are you sure?” He asked, forcing himself not to grin.
Her eyes glistened, that perfect blue, looking more like an ocean than before, now with her tears shining in them. She nodded firmly, smiling. “I’m in.”
xxx
fandom: Law & Order SVU
pairing: elliot/katie (ofc)
letter: b for blue-eyed - table # 11 for a_to_z_prompts
summary: Elliot wants an answer.
rating: PG.
word count: 1448
warnings/spoilers: None.
a/n: Katie Summers is an original character of mine who I'm pairing with Detective Elliot Stabler for my fic's in this challenge. You'll get to know more about her as you read :) SVU timeline wise is set during the time Elliot is separated from his wife; around seasons 5-7.
disclaimer: I do not own the characters of Law and Order SVU. This is purely written for entertainment only.
Inspired by the song "Ocean Blue Eyes" by The Shrimp Boat Pirates.
Fallen
It had been almost a week since Katie had been out of hospital, and Elliot knew Ben was staying with her so he had kept his distance until that weekend. The kids went with Kathy to her sister’s for a birthday party, Elliot wasn’t welcome there, and he knew that. So instead he made his way to Katie’s apartment.
She had called him in a slight panic at work during the week, saying that both Matt and Bonnie knew about them, but she believed they would both keep it a secret. He wondered why Katie was distancing herself from him, even just for this week; it was a gap that he’d noticed. He’d gotten used to her at work over the years, seeing her smile and the way she breezed through the day, and now when he glanced over at her desk and knew that she had chosen him, that he was allowed to be as intimate as possible with her... it just made him that much happier to get up in the morning.
There was something about her that he’d never felt before, something strangely new. He’d had crushes on women who had worked at the station before, hell he couldn’t deny he’d felt a little something for Olivia when they’d first been paired up; but thinking of her like that now could make him nauseous; Olivia was family. His best friend.
Katie was something else.
He wondered if it was the happiness in her eyes. Yes, she worked at a police station; but she didn’t have to physically and verbally deal with murderers, rapists and child molesters on a daily basis; her eyes didn’t have that dark cloud through them that all SVU Detectives seemed to get. They remained that innocent, pale blue of the clearest ocean; not scarred by seeing the worst of human behaviour.
Maybe it was naivety that kept her so innocent, or rather untouched, by the brutality of the world they both worked within; it was what made her so special; so coveted. She was a glimmer of light; something that proved to Elliot daily, that no matter how bad the criminal, there was still humanity in the world; still right before his eyes. She could smile on a day that Elliot would have wanted the ground to swallow him up whole.
And what he admired most was that this was just how she was. She hadn’t changed, she hadn’t adapted, and she hadn’t let the horrific details stain her life. She wasn’t blind to them; but she wouldn’t let them affect her. And not in a way that made her closed off; she was just the opposite.
Elliot couldn’t pinpoint the moment he had fallen for her. It was before their first physical encounter... before he’d even realized he’d been sexually attracted to her... surely not from the day they met... she had been so sickeningly cheerful to Elliot back then. He remembered thinking that a few months working with the scum that he dealt with day in day out and that would change her, for sure. She’d be out of there as fast as her legs would carry her.
Instead; she’d proved him wrong, something she now did almost subconsciously. Not only had she toughed it out; she’d improved the workplace, at least for Elliot. She was genuinely upbeat and positive, not something Elliot expected from a girl whose father had been murder red when she was a child, whose mother was in ill-health and with a sister who had an unpredictable wild streak... and that’s something that drew Elliot in; she was fascinating. How could she be this way? How did her mind and heart work to keep get her through the tougher days? She made him so curious... she made him think about her; without realizing it. She wasn’t overtly seductive, or flirtatious, even though with her youthful beauty she could very well have been; she was just... Katie. And he loved her.
The problem was; she loved someone else. And without even realizing that this would be his mission when he arrived at Katie’s apartment that night, knowing that Ben was probably right in the next room, he knew he had to tell her, and she had to make a decision. His divorce would be final in a few weeks now, but he and Kathy had been having problems for years, she was just the one who had finally had the balls to say enough is enough. Elliot didn’t care if it was PC for him to want Katie so soon after a divorce, even though he’d wanted her for much longer, and he didn’t care what anyone thought. Not right now; right now he wanted to know if she felt what he felt. If she didn’t...
His heart pounding, Elliot hit the doorbell, hoping that Ben wouldn’t answer. He was a nice guy, and a smart one... Elliot showing up like this might be a massive clue to a question he might already be asking... was Katie still sleeping with Ben? The thought made Elliot uncomfortable... he could understand it; as a way of keeping up appearances... but why didn’t she just leave him? Maybe she didn’t feel what he felt...
“Elliot?”
He smiled, it was Katie. “Hi,” The bruises on her face from the attack were healing well; he told her so. “Bonnie home?”
Katie clucked her tongue. “No, she’s not, I think she’s gone to stay with our mother; I haven’t heard from her since she...found out about us.” She paused. “And yes Ben’s here.” She added in a tone that revealed she knew that was the question he had wanted to ask in the first place. “He’s asleep on the couch,” She quietly stepped out of her apartment and gently pulled the door shut. “He’s been here all week...”
“I love you.” Elliot said. He wasn’t one to mince words; ramble on about his feelings. It served him no use. He said what he felt; and she would have to deal with it. “I’m in love with you. And I can’t stand this.” He gestured to her closed door, to her partner inside. “I can’t do it anymore. If you don’t love me; we’ll end it. But I won’t do this anymore.”
She looked stunned, he’d expected she might, her eyes were wide and puzzled; this was obviously the last thing she had expected to hear when she opened her front door.
“I...” She could barely get that one word out. “I... you are...”
Elliot shook his head. “Don’t answer like that. Tell me straight up, Katie. I’m not gonna tell you to take your time, make a decision while I wait around. To me this is real. You’re either in or out.” He waited; the seconds painfully ticking by in silence as Katie’s eyes just grew more and more tearful; and the longer it went on, the more Elliot had his answer. Swallowing the hard lump in his throat, Elliot managed to speak one final sentence. “Have a good night,” He said looking away from her and making a beeline for the elevator.
There. He’d done it. Laid it on the line. She said no. Well; she said nothing... and that actually felt worse.
Elliot felt some sort of numbness through his body as he rode the elevator down to the parking garage, he had to rest back against the rear of the elevator and hang onto the barrier to keep his balance, his legs felt like jelly. He hadn’t realized her rejection would do this to him... but then again he hadn’t felt this way about someone since Kathy, and that was when he was eighteen.
The elevator doors opened, forcing Elliot to use his legs and get out of here. He heard footsteps coming from his left, life on the force had taught him to be alert so he whirled around with his fists tight...
“In.” Katie said.
Elliot unclenched and registered that it was her standing before him. “What?”
“I’m in.” She smiled and took a step towards him, puffing heavily like she’d run a marathon.
Glancing over her shoulder, Elliot saw the fire escape door was wide open; she’d run down the stairs to catch him before he left. His mind was working overtime. She’d run down to stop him... to tell him that she felt the same way... their affair wasn’t just an affair. It meant something to her, too. “Are you sure?” He asked, forcing himself not to grin.
Her eyes glistened, that perfect blue, looking more like an ocean than before, now with her tears shining in them. She nodded firmly, smiling. “I’m in.”
xxx