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so i'm officially at a loss. maybe i'm just being impatient but, i really don't care at this point.
the low down:
so i'm really really picky when it comes to girls. i can normally tell off the bat who i could maybe like and who not just from how they dress/look. before they could speak there was just something about them that made me light up. i've just got this thing of girls who don't really dress good. now i'm not saying that they should look like trash but, if i see a girl wearing something kind of outlandish (i.e a bold green dress with tacky white trim) i tend to pay a bit more attention to them. that may sound superficial but every good relationship (meaning the person left a significant impact on my life) i've ever had (all 2 of 'em) i would just get chills from seeing them. i've been here for three years and there's really only a couple (like 2) girls that i can say do this to me. neither of which have a very grand interest in me (at least from what i can tell). the one i've been able to contact doesn't really seem all that interested. while the other barely recognizes me every time i've seen her for the past 3 years. i just hate engaging in a relationship that i know will end up no where. so, to avoid in any disappointmentt on either side i just avoid them all together. in turn, this has rendered me single for quite some time now (nearing in on the 3 year mark). so i guess maybe this is some sort of resolution to put forth an major effort to getting to know these girls better. i don't really know how i'm to go about doing this but, i really tired of this. i've had no one that i can really share any sort of emotional connection. and well, it's catching up to me. i want to make dinner for someone besides myself. i want to shave to look pretty for someone. i want to wake up to something besides a white wall and red sheets.
sorry for being a whiny little turd. this has just been really getting to me with it being the holidays and all.
so i'm officially at a loss. maybe i'm just being impatient but, i really don't care at this point.
the low down:
so i'm really really picky when it comes to girls. i can normally tell off the bat who i could maybe like and who not just from how they dress/look. before they could speak there was just something about them that made me light up. i've just got this thing of girls who don't really dress good. now i'm not saying that they should look like trash but, if i see a girl wearing something kind of outlandish (i.e a bold green dress with tacky white trim) i tend to pay a bit more attention to them. that may sound superficial but every good relationship (meaning the person left a significant impact on my life) i've ever had (all 2 of 'em) i would just get chills from seeing them. i've been here for three years and there's really only a couple (like 2) girls that i can say do this to me. neither of which have a very grand interest in me (at least from what i can tell). the one i've been able to contact doesn't really seem all that interested. while the other barely recognizes me every time i've seen her for the past 3 years. i just hate engaging in a relationship that i know will end up no where. so, to avoid in any disappointmentt on either side i just avoid them all together. in turn, this has rendered me single for quite some time now (nearing in on the 3 year mark). so i guess maybe this is some sort of resolution to put forth an major effort to getting to know these girls better. i don't really know how i'm to go about doing this but, i really tired of this. i've had no one that i can really share any sort of emotional connection. and well, it's catching up to me. i want to make dinner for someone besides myself. i want to shave to look pretty for someone. i want to wake up to something besides a white wall and red sheets.
sorry for being a whiny little turd. this has just been really getting to me with it being the holidays and all.