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i've just been sewing and watching the extended lord of the rings all day.
Lord of the rings is christmas for my family, but my mum will be in England by then and I won't see her. I'm sad today.
I went for a walk in the rain with the dogs and sat by the river and had a giant mopefest. I've realised how few I actually care about and how poisonous some of the people I hung around with were. There's this ridiculous rumor going around about me and the person who spread it was one of my closest friends. Even on the night she left I didn't say a word about it although she continually tried to degrade me and insult me because i honestly do not care anymore. She's just moved across the country and I won't see her again. And i'm glad.
I'm going to two parties tonight and i'm sure i'll just be a blob of self pity.