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So, I remember this from my past breakup, but it seems to be worse this time.
Im horny as fuck
I havnt had sex in..... 2 months? And the last time I did it, it was with Josh, so it was awful and I cried I regretted it so much. So that almost doesnt even count. And now that I think about it, the last time I even made out was that night too. So um, this is not ok.
The problem is, Im so set in my ways, that Im kinda stuck like this until I date someone new.
After Josh, I also swore that I would never do it again until "I love you" was said. He was my biggest mistake, and Ive learned that my emotions cannot withstand another ride on that coaster.
Although Mike was so goddamn sexy I may have reconsidered.... haha
But no. I wouldnt have. Because as Ive already made clear..... thats SO not how everything was with us. I loved it. There was NO pressure whatsoever. God I miss him. I miss what we could have been. I miss the excitement of new-ness. I miss every second.
Im also kinda screwed since I also said that if I couldnt be with Mike I was just going to take a break from guys altogether for now. To clear my head. Im entirely convinced that due to recent events that Lindsey is completely right. 75% of men are pigs, 20% are gay, and the last 5% will be there when you need them most. So Ill just let the proverbial "him" find me.
Until then, Im left to my own devices.
I may have to send Lindsey out shopping for me since Im wayyyyyyyyyy to embarrassed to do it myself.
~Lindsey..... you love it *mwah*~
Im horny as fuck
I havnt had sex in..... 2 months? And the last time I did it, it was with Josh, so it was awful and I cried I regretted it so much. So that almost doesnt even count. And now that I think about it, the last time I even made out was that night too. So um, this is not ok.
The problem is, Im so set in my ways, that Im kinda stuck like this until I date someone new.
After Josh, I also swore that I would never do it again until "I love you" was said. He was my biggest mistake, and Ive learned that my emotions cannot withstand another ride on that coaster.
Although Mike was so goddamn sexy I may have reconsidered.... haha
But no. I wouldnt have. Because as Ive already made clear..... thats SO not how everything was with us. I loved it. There was NO pressure whatsoever. God I miss him. I miss what we could have been. I miss the excitement of new-ness. I miss every second.
Im also kinda screwed since I also said that if I couldnt be with Mike I was just going to take a break from guys altogether for now. To clear my head. Im entirely convinced that due to recent events that Lindsey is completely right. 75% of men are pigs, 20% are gay, and the last 5% will be there when you need them most. So Ill just let the proverbial "him" find me.
Until then, Im left to my own devices.
I may have to send Lindsey out shopping for me since Im wayyyyyyyyyy to embarrassed to do it myself.
~Lindsey..... you love it *mwah*~