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kinda pissed...yesterday i was looking at the schedule for les mis rehursal and i see that "revolutionary women" are in like 5 scenes. except it doesnt say who they are on the sheet, and the original cast list has been taken down. so i go to mr orefice and im like "am i in the revolutionary women?" and he says "yes, i dont have the original cast list on me but im pretty sure you are one". so i show up for the cast rehursal later, and theyre rehursing one of the revolutionary women scenes. and a girl, who shall remain nameless, comes up to me when im looking up when revoultionary women are rehursing and says "youre not in that scene" in this totally bitchy voice. and i was like "sorry, but mr orefice said i was" and she says "oh." and turns around and walks away. but the thing was, she was right. mr orefice had confused me with another alex in the show and i wasnt in that scene. and at that point i just got really pissed off and frustrated.
in middle school, id slaved away for 3 years. i made sure i never missed rehursal unless it was absoultely necessary. i sacrificed cheerleading, karate and dance class so i could do the plays, always telling myself it would pay off in the end and that our director would notice my dedication and talent and give me a good role once i got into high school. it had happened before, they just dont give lead roles to middle schoolers. i figured once i was in 9th grade, id get a good role and all of my dedication wouldnt be for nothing.
then mom and dad decided that i wasnt going to ursuline anymore. and i got mad because all of the slaving id done in middle school was for nothing because i was leaving and id never get to prove myself.
and now i have to start all over again to prove that im dedicated and talented and that acting is more then just something im doing to look good on college applications. i mean i know that i wouldnt have gotten a lead role and that there are no small parts, only small actors. but seriously, i just wish i had more time onstage because it seems like everyone is on more then i am. i think im only in one number thats not something that the whole chorus is in. i wish i could convey this to mr orefice without sounding like some kind of diva. im not talented enough to complain...maybe in a year.
in middle school, id slaved away for 3 years. i made sure i never missed rehursal unless it was absoultely necessary. i sacrificed cheerleading, karate and dance class so i could do the plays, always telling myself it would pay off in the end and that our director would notice my dedication and talent and give me a good role once i got into high school. it had happened before, they just dont give lead roles to middle schoolers. i figured once i was in 9th grade, id get a good role and all of my dedication wouldnt be for nothing.
then mom and dad decided that i wasnt going to ursuline anymore. and i got mad because all of the slaving id done in middle school was for nothing because i was leaving and id never get to prove myself.
and now i have to start all over again to prove that im dedicated and talented and that acting is more then just something im doing to look good on college applications. i mean i know that i wouldnt have gotten a lead role and that there are no small parts, only small actors. but seriously, i just wish i had more time onstage because it seems like everyone is on more then i am. i think im only in one number thats not something that the whole chorus is in. i wish i could convey this to mr orefice without sounding like some kind of diva. im not talented enough to complain...maybe in a year.