Another turning point, a fork stuck in the road...
Sometimes I wonder why I came back to Roanoke this summer. I don't get to see most of my friends and it's not like I am tied up with a job. I have no job, no money, nothing to do with my time or life. I really wish I would have gotten an apartment or stayed with Terry in Radford.
Last summer a long distance relationship was easier for me because I always busy. Granted that made it hard as well, but that relationship had no basis before going long distance which made it harder. This summer, there was almost 8 months already established, and it would be so much easier if I was keeping myself busy, but I am not.
I have nothing to occupy my time with so all I do is get down and depressed more becaue all I can do is sit and dwell on things that I shouldn't be spending so much time thinking about because of the moods that they put me in. It's not about going out and necessarily doing something with friends but just keeping busy. And because I am always home, I suffer more of that whole "being under my dad's roof" thing. Sometimes I wish that I could just pack up and get away. But hey, it's hard to do anything without money.
Today I was looking through my senior book (scrapbook from senior year of high school) and realized that a lot has changed since then. I barely talk to most of the people, if any, that I considered best friends and such anymore. Life has changed, and maybe I am still just getting used to that. But I am so used to living in full throttle, never having time to slow down, and now what am I supposed to do when I am stuck at a red light all summer?
Last summer a long distance relationship was easier for me because I always busy. Granted that made it hard as well, but that relationship had no basis before going long distance which made it harder. This summer, there was almost 8 months already established, and it would be so much easier if I was keeping myself busy, but I am not.
I have nothing to occupy my time with so all I do is get down and depressed more becaue all I can do is sit and dwell on things that I shouldn't be spending so much time thinking about because of the moods that they put me in. It's not about going out and necessarily doing something with friends but just keeping busy. And because I am always home, I suffer more of that whole "being under my dad's roof" thing. Sometimes I wish that I could just pack up and get away. But hey, it's hard to do anything without money.
Today I was looking through my senior book (scrapbook from senior year of high school) and realized that a lot has changed since then. I barely talk to most of the people, if any, that I considered best friends and such anymore. Life has changed, and maybe I am still just getting used to that. But I am so used to living in full throttle, never having time to slow down, and now what am I supposed to do when I am stuck at a red light all summer?