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So I move into school on Saturday...aka 4 days. I am way excited, but scared to death at the same time. It is almost like freshman year all over again, I have to leave the friends I have just once again gotten close to. And I have to make new friends all over since most of the people that I was so close with last year at schoo aren't coming back. Melissas not. Kellies not. Bryans not. And even though I haven't talked to him but once or twice in these past three weeks, I really need him to be there. It's hard because I feel like things are completely over. My feelings aren't different though, and I don't seem how I care about him changing anytime soon. But he feels like he can't call me and I feel like I can't call him because it was my decision. So I don't know what is going to happen. This summer has just really made me realize who is really there, and who says they are, but leaves when things get rough...I have lost quite a few of my "best" friends this summer. But boy do I cherish the ones that I do have back in my life, and I hate leaving them again. But, as scared as I am, I'm ready for this.