Almost September Already???
So the craziness continues, but I have to say that things have not been nearly as difficult as I had imagined them to be. I am through almost half of my back-to-school nights and the parents have been great. I have had a ton of people sign up, so that is really exciting because not only does that mean a lot more money for me, but it means my classes will be big and that always energizes me.
The movie got pushed back further, if not outright cancelled. I have to say I am glad, because we could do way better than that script. A lot of people on the team are disappointed, but I think this happened for a reason. It's also been a big stress off of me, because Jonin is around and so I stress about the Honbu dojo a lot less. I still have a ton of work to do there, but I don't worry about it as much. I can focus more on getting people into the Koninjutsu program, and on Karate Kix.
I couldn't have asked for a better August considering that I was dreading this month. If I hadn't miscarried the baby would have come this month, and I knew that would be really depressing. It has been kind of tough, a lot of people I know recently had children, and I work around them all day. But somehow, although I am sad I am not depressed about it. It sounds cheesy, but my baby really gave me a gift by deciding not to come yet. And this sounds CRAZY, but I honestly feel like the child I saw in my dreams never died, but rather postponed it's arrival. I don't think it's heart ever even started beating before it said, "No, it's not your time. And it's not mine either." There is so much more that I am meant to do, if there is a fate, I can just feel it. It has taken me a lot of time to come to terms with that, because I really wanted to be a mother. And I don't like to wait for anything ;) The experience of miscarrying has really caused me to change my views on parenthood. Each child is so much more of a miracle, and so much more precious. It has made me consider maybe fostering or adopting in the future, as well as having my own children. And it has definitely made me love teaching that much more.
OK, I need to stop with the sap. I have a lot to focus on, such as getting the last pieces of my business put into place, and losing the LAST 5 POUNDS. Woohoo! I am starting to hear great things from people "Wow, you really have lost weight!" "Look at you, little skinny person!" and "You're such a string bean." I can't remember the last time someone told me I was skinny. I have heard "you're looking great" a lot before, but I do think in another 5 pounds people are going to look at me and say "if you diet any more there won't be anything left of you, please stop." And I can't wait for that. I have worked so hard to get to this point and I never thought I'd make it. Whew.
We're going on another dojo cave trip on Sunday! I love caving, so I am SUPER EXCITED! YAAAAY! Last weekend I went up to Fort Collins and visited my family, went to the New West Fest (big artsy festival in Fort Collins), so that was a nice break. And next week is the TOOL CONCERT! KIK AZZ! So many good things going on.
The movie got pushed back further, if not outright cancelled. I have to say I am glad, because we could do way better than that script. A lot of people on the team are disappointed, but I think this happened for a reason. It's also been a big stress off of me, because Jonin is around and so I stress about the Honbu dojo a lot less. I still have a ton of work to do there, but I don't worry about it as much. I can focus more on getting people into the Koninjutsu program, and on Karate Kix.
I couldn't have asked for a better August considering that I was dreading this month. If I hadn't miscarried the baby would have come this month, and I knew that would be really depressing. It has been kind of tough, a lot of people I know recently had children, and I work around them all day. But somehow, although I am sad I am not depressed about it. It sounds cheesy, but my baby really gave me a gift by deciding not to come yet. And this sounds CRAZY, but I honestly feel like the child I saw in my dreams never died, but rather postponed it's arrival. I don't think it's heart ever even started beating before it said, "No, it's not your time. And it's not mine either." There is so much more that I am meant to do, if there is a fate, I can just feel it. It has taken me a lot of time to come to terms with that, because I really wanted to be a mother. And I don't like to wait for anything ;) The experience of miscarrying has really caused me to change my views on parenthood. Each child is so much more of a miracle, and so much more precious. It has made me consider maybe fostering or adopting in the future, as well as having my own children. And it has definitely made me love teaching that much more.
OK, I need to stop with the sap. I have a lot to focus on, such as getting the last pieces of my business put into place, and losing the LAST 5 POUNDS. Woohoo! I am starting to hear great things from people "Wow, you really have lost weight!" "Look at you, little skinny person!" and "You're such a string bean." I can't remember the last time someone told me I was skinny. I have heard "you're looking great" a lot before, but I do think in another 5 pounds people are going to look at me and say "if you diet any more there won't be anything left of you, please stop." And I can't wait for that. I have worked so hard to get to this point and I never thought I'd make it. Whew.
We're going on another dojo cave trip on Sunday! I love caving, so I am SUPER EXCITED! YAAAAY! Last weekend I went up to Fort Collins and visited my family, went to the New West Fest (big artsy festival in Fort Collins), so that was a nice break. And next week is the TOOL CONCERT! KIK AZZ! So many good things going on.