Still moving forward
So things in my life have gone from good to blah in a matter of oh, probably 3 months. My first semester at Purdue Calumet went just fine, I have good grades so far...but now that I'm in a bit of a rut I'm constantly telling myself I need to at least get my reading done before going back to feeling like poo. I probably had my first real serious "adult" relationship if you want to call it that. Well, for once I wasn't in a relationship that was long-distance which was wonderful, but then I got dumped...I have no real idea why...but it happened and now I'm stuck trying to figure out what went wrong other than the obvious "we just weren't right for each other" spiel. I dunno, just something inside of me thinks there's more too it, but no one communicates how they feel, so I have no idea. I tell people how I feel, and I just expected to have that in return...but no. The weather is not helping me either. All it does is snow and continue to snow and it's freakin' cold! There hasn't been this much snow or cold in 10 years they say...WTF!? So I just shelter myself indoors and ponder the error of my ways. I really am trying not to beat myself up over everything, but it's hard. Girls suck, so we're just going to stick with that. At least I have my friends who I get to see every weekend so it makes up for the weekdays and is a good way to just forget about everything for awhile. I wish I had better luck, everyone else around me seems to have better luck than I do...it's really disheartening. Sorry for the depressing rant, but it's really all I've got these days. My life consists of waking up at 7:30 getting ready for school, spending my days at school and my nights reading (attempting to read) for school at night followed by going to bed and doing it all over again the next day. I usually spend my weekends in the suburbs with my friends going to hockey games or sitting around watching movies. I need a vacation, like a real one somewhere off out of the Midwest, who wants to go with?! Who am I kidding, I have no money...blah. Well off to my next class.