i've been through trauma.
well, yesterday was a fucknig disappointment. so much crap happened. i cant begin to explain. really.
i cried my eyes out.
well. i'll tell you what happened. and i'll tell you from the start.
My mom and i were driving home from the auto shop because we had to pick up my car on account that it was being repaired. i ran into keeve there and we chatted for a bit and i was in a pretty swell mood. well, when we got home my dad was in the driveway and was like "hey sarah, do you wanna run to the store with me for a bit?". and since i dont hang out with my dad or get to spend much time with him i thought that it would be a nice gesture to go with him. so i hopped in the car with him and we headed down the street. well, our neighbors pulled out in front of us on our way out. when we got to the entrance of our neighborhood our neighbors were still in front of us waiting for a break in traffic to pull out since mathis ferry is a pretty busy road around 5 o'clock. in our neighbors car was her, and her two daughters were in the backseat. they're 11 and 14 years old. well as soon as there was a gap in the road our neighbor floored it and pulled out into traffic. and at that very moment, a person ran in front of her. she slammed into him, and then slammed into the car in the next lane. the person got lodged under/between the two cars. this all happened about 10 feet in front of me. at the moment of impact i burst into tears and my dad and i climbed out of the car and ran over. my dad then told me to stand on the side of the road. and as i watched everything and everyone, my neighbor sitting in her car in shock. her daughters bawling in the backseat of the car. the person in the other car climbing out of the passenger side door. i realized how much we take for granted. and how we never know when we're going to die. you don't experience something like this everyday. its like your alseep the whole time and someone slaps you to wake up and your whole body goes numb. and your crying so much you cant see or think straight. and you just sit on the side of the road indian style with your hands over your face. wishing that things had never happened the way they did. my dad then told me to walk back home when the ambulance pulled up. sirens blaring and lights flashing. we never heard the sirens turn back on once the body was placed in the back. as if they werent in a rush to get to the hospital. he was 21 years old. and his name was james. he was engaged to be married.
you see. we never know when we're going to fucking die.
im going to be such a different person from now on. more caring about everyone and less bitter towards people and the world we live in. im sorry james. we'll miss you.
i cried my eyes out.
well. i'll tell you what happened. and i'll tell you from the start.
My mom and i were driving home from the auto shop because we had to pick up my car on account that it was being repaired. i ran into keeve there and we chatted for a bit and i was in a pretty swell mood. well, when we got home my dad was in the driveway and was like "hey sarah, do you wanna run to the store with me for a bit?". and since i dont hang out with my dad or get to spend much time with him i thought that it would be a nice gesture to go with him. so i hopped in the car with him and we headed down the street. well, our neighbors pulled out in front of us on our way out. when we got to the entrance of our neighborhood our neighbors were still in front of us waiting for a break in traffic to pull out since mathis ferry is a pretty busy road around 5 o'clock. in our neighbors car was her, and her two daughters were in the backseat. they're 11 and 14 years old. well as soon as there was a gap in the road our neighbor floored it and pulled out into traffic. and at that very moment, a person ran in front of her. she slammed into him, and then slammed into the car in the next lane. the person got lodged under/between the two cars. this all happened about 10 feet in front of me. at the moment of impact i burst into tears and my dad and i climbed out of the car and ran over. my dad then told me to stand on the side of the road. and as i watched everything and everyone, my neighbor sitting in her car in shock. her daughters bawling in the backseat of the car. the person in the other car climbing out of the passenger side door. i realized how much we take for granted. and how we never know when we're going to die. you don't experience something like this everyday. its like your alseep the whole time and someone slaps you to wake up and your whole body goes numb. and your crying so much you cant see or think straight. and you just sit on the side of the road indian style with your hands over your face. wishing that things had never happened the way they did. my dad then told me to walk back home when the ambulance pulled up. sirens blaring and lights flashing. we never heard the sirens turn back on once the body was placed in the back. as if they werent in a rush to get to the hospital. he was 21 years old. and his name was james. he was engaged to be married.
you see. we never know when we're going to fucking die.
im going to be such a different person from now on. more caring about everyone and less bitter towards people and the world we live in. im sorry james. we'll miss you.