That's a big ocean.
My engagement has been called off.
I miss chinese take-out.
7 weeks is long enough in a foreign country alone.
I want to come home now.
ADDENDUM: Here's the long and the short of it:
There were patterns that always happen every time we are about to leave each other, and I wasn't having any of it. There was a fight that wasn't really a fight at all, and there was some unprecedented violence. And I'm fine; mostly. Physically, I'll heal. Emotionally, I am miserable. I couldn't go to class today. I went to bed at 10 and woke up and got dressed, but I just couldn't face all those happy and loud people. And I don't want to sing tonight at 6pm. And my nose is bleeding and it NEVER bleeds (this is not a result of physical violence) and I just know my body is just shutting down over this. And I know it's his problem and his childhood issues and he has to get it fixed and none of this is my fault.
I don't know how I'll get through five more weeks here alone, and I miss you guys so much and I miss american food and friends and Barnes and Noble and I really want that job at Williams-Sonoma, and from then on I don't really know where I'm going. I have a diploma - do I move to NYC? Chicago? London? Do I keep taking voice?
What I know for sure (as Oprah says) is that my finger feels bare and I did the right thing.
I miss chinese take-out.
7 weeks is long enough in a foreign country alone.
I want to come home now.
ADDENDUM: Here's the long and the short of it:
There were patterns that always happen every time we are about to leave each other, and I wasn't having any of it. There was a fight that wasn't really a fight at all, and there was some unprecedented violence. And I'm fine; mostly. Physically, I'll heal. Emotionally, I am miserable. I couldn't go to class today. I went to bed at 10 and woke up and got dressed, but I just couldn't face all those happy and loud people. And I don't want to sing tonight at 6pm. And my nose is bleeding and it NEVER bleeds (this is not a result of physical violence) and I just know my body is just shutting down over this. And I know it's his problem and his childhood issues and he has to get it fixed and none of this is my fault.
I don't know how I'll get through five more weeks here alone, and I miss you guys so much and I miss american food and friends and Barnes and Noble and I really want that job at Williams-Sonoma, and from then on I don't really know where I'm going. I have a diploma - do I move to NYC? Chicago? London? Do I keep taking voice?
What I know for sure (as Oprah says) is that my finger feels bare and I did the right thing.