Long time no post
My parents are in Texas, it is their 27th anniversary today, they have a GPS and have no idea to work it. Does that mean we are all old?
The good news is that we were supposed to do one of our promotional "tour" shows on Monday and therefore would have to work on Sunday and Monday, but word is it got canceled, so that means I can spend time with my mom and dad. If we have both days off, I might get to go to San Antonio after all. And that is very exciting!!!
People here are very angry. They are always bitching about somebody or something that someone else has done. They act like they're lives here are miserable. Most of these people are the ones that are within driving distance of home so I don't exactly understand what they are complaining about. We have a fine theatre job, maybe not the best in the world, definitely not the best, but it's something somewhere. We have an audience that loves the show, and let's be honest, in the real world, unless you're doing something edgy, geriatric audiences are the norm.
At least that's what I keep telling myself. It's very easy for me to beat myself down (which I got called out on last night, sheesh it's been a while for someone to do that). Last nigh, it was just "why can't I always sustain these notes, why does this not feel right, why can't I get a better job when I've worked so hard'. Lots of whys. Right now, I'm focusing on just taking it one job at a time and that the next one will be better. Even the best (my favorite) actors have been in some really shitastic movies. There are no rules, even though it feels like all the odds are in my favor most of the time.
I try to deny all those feelings. I have a very love-hate relationship with all this.
In the meantime, I have been running and doing weights, not snacking or drinking to conquer my stress. I have to say that's lead to some more positive outcomes. Also been watching a fair amount of TV. I have fallen in love with "Swingtown" which will probably get canceled because it's losing advertisers and is rather provocative. Also, "Army Wives" is cute and "Mad Men" starts up at the end of the month. These are things that make me happy, lol.
After I leave here, Sean and I are going to roadtrip for the week before heading back to the East Coast. I just booked us a hotel in Fort Worth, where we plan on getting some drinks at Billy Bob's, world famous honkytonk (too bad we can't go on the weekend, when there's bullriding!). Other stops will include Dallas, Oklahoma City (to see some of his family), Memphis, Nashville, Cartersville GA (to see more of his family...is he prepping me for something, lol) and then finally back home. I am quite excited that we have saved up enough money to see the Heartland of America, but more excited that we just get to be adults and spend a week together on the road. Feasting on Asphalt, baby!
The good news is that we were supposed to do one of our promotional "tour" shows on Monday and therefore would have to work on Sunday and Monday, but word is it got canceled, so that means I can spend time with my mom and dad. If we have both days off, I might get to go to San Antonio after all. And that is very exciting!!!
People here are very angry. They are always bitching about somebody or something that someone else has done. They act like they're lives here are miserable. Most of these people are the ones that are within driving distance of home so I don't exactly understand what they are complaining about. We have a fine theatre job, maybe not the best in the world, definitely not the best, but it's something somewhere. We have an audience that loves the show, and let's be honest, in the real world, unless you're doing something edgy, geriatric audiences are the norm.
At least that's what I keep telling myself. It's very easy for me to beat myself down (which I got called out on last night, sheesh it's been a while for someone to do that). Last nigh, it was just "why can't I always sustain these notes, why does this not feel right, why can't I get a better job when I've worked so hard'. Lots of whys. Right now, I'm focusing on just taking it one job at a time and that the next one will be better. Even the best (my favorite) actors have been in some really shitastic movies. There are no rules, even though it feels like all the odds are in my favor most of the time.
I try to deny all those feelings. I have a very love-hate relationship with all this.
In the meantime, I have been running and doing weights, not snacking or drinking to conquer my stress. I have to say that's lead to some more positive outcomes. Also been watching a fair amount of TV. I have fallen in love with "Swingtown" which will probably get canceled because it's losing advertisers and is rather provocative. Also, "Army Wives" is cute and "Mad Men" starts up at the end of the month. These are things that make me happy, lol.
After I leave here, Sean and I are going to roadtrip for the week before heading back to the East Coast. I just booked us a hotel in Fort Worth, where we plan on getting some drinks at Billy Bob's, world famous honkytonk (too bad we can't go on the weekend, when there's bullriding!). Other stops will include Dallas, Oklahoma City (to see some of his family), Memphis, Nashville, Cartersville GA (to see more of his family...is he prepping me for something, lol) and then finally back home. I am quite excited that we have saved up enough money to see the Heartland of America, but more excited that we just get to be adults and spend a week together on the road. Feasting on Asphalt, baby!