repressed
i am crazymakin
feelin insane tonight
wanting to scream
and cry
and tear out my hair
i feel uncontained
which is dangerous
don’t unleash me upon the world
for no one will know what to do w/ me.
sometimes i need the
perfect peace
only found when i’m bound by rules
of conduct
so that i can choose to submit
or venture off on my own
but starting from scratch
under my own impetuous?
that
is too much for me to contemplate
too many different directions
i can go.
makes me want to consume
swallow everything whole
as if that would solve the problem
satisfaction eludes me
cause i can’t take it in tiny bite sized pieces
i can’t wait that long
to find the answers
to what i seek
it’s all too much sometimes
and i have no where to go
no where
no one
alone