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Confession: I miss the days of my early involvement in this fandom. When my peeps would go through every new story almost line by line and tell me exactly what they loved and which things worked best or didn't work at all. *sighs* It's not like I don't treasure the "loved it!"s. It's just not the same. And they don't help me get better. And it's not like I took the time to pour out 10,000 words. Yeah, I know, I'm whining. *double sigh*
ETA: Maybe I should clarify. It's not just about pointing out mistakes, even though I do want that. (It's too easy to get stuck in a rut sometimes.) It was just a simple joy to see which lines my folks liked best, which scenes resonated most strongly... and yes, it was a rush every time when I saw that someone had picked up on the intricate little details and in-jokes I like to smuggle in. These days, I just feel like I'm writing into a void, and yes, it's good to see that my stories are still liked after two and a half years. But sometimes it still feels as if I'm just writing for myself.
ETA: Maybe I should clarify. It's not just about pointing out mistakes, even though I do want that. (It's too easy to get stuck in a rut sometimes.) It was just a simple joy to see which lines my folks liked best, which scenes resonated most strongly... and yes, it was a rush every time when I saw that someone had picked up on the intricate little details and in-jokes I like to smuggle in. These days, I just feel like I'm writing into a void, and yes, it's good to see that my stories are still liked after two and a half years. But sometimes it still feels as if I'm just writing for myself.