smoke.
enrich me.
dear livejournal...
life is so fucking amazing i cant get over it...and lately ive been super appreciative in my own head of what i have, and what i dont have. i think it's great the way emotions play out. it was weird today cause i realized how much i had been thinking about one topic..and it had me thinking some more, i pleasantly stroke my chin as i say this word...
why?
i started thinking...of a lot of stuff. but basically i was drawn to this immature emotion i call love. theres love, and lack of love...or maybe hate and lack of...but whatever it is it makes people so interesting. its so completely amazing how love is this memory we've captured in our brains as an emotion that each person has. its something humans can relate to each other with, it changes perspective, choices etc. but where does it all come from. when we are concieved (another extremely amazing thing) well i think thats where it starts..RIGHT there! there is the sperm, and the egg...the sperm gets into the egg and then what? well then you've got these two chromosomes sitting next to eachother...and they make one person. scientific right? wrong! cause these two chromosomes have to link together so what do they do? well theres a part of the whole creation thing where the two chromosomes send data sort of like a computer sends out an email. well these chromosomes exchange some data...what im asking is how the fuck two scientific organisms decided to "talk" to eachother listen, and link. and how they make that first cell? that first cell is you. is me..is anyone out there that was created, THAT is where I think the love starts. its where these two chromosomes fall in love and together becomes one set of dna, your dna. so after some time these guys all decide to multiply and make some more of eachother..until you've got ur little baby in your moms womb. eventually you are born, but according to the chaos theory...ur whole life starts when the chromosomes have their little chat, cause thats when the map of your life starts. a tree for instance, sure there are factors that influence it, but is it possible that the map of how it will live was actually ignited when the tree was a seed? fuck life is confusing and so fascinating. I dont have much figured out..but when my dad first explained alot of this to me...it really did take practically 2 years to actually begin to soak in..he didnt tell me that exact stuff but he told me so much that im learning from, and everyday refer to. and my mom! she explained the whole chromosome thing to me, which just blew my mind, i had the whole feeling of...what the fuck. haha and subconciously my brains working it all out..its just gonna take a hella long time.
but anyway, i dont know if other people get this, but today i felt like i absorbed someone a lot like how a sponge absorbs water. i was just with them at one point when i felt like everything they felt just soaked into me. i use to think i was psychic actualyl, but i know im not..im just human, and im positive that all humans have an ability to feel what each others feeling and thinking, its just gonna take a long time before we all take control of this gift and use it. i also think we have some kind of magnetism in our brains that may be connected to knowing where another person is. cause if bacteria has that, then how come we dont? maybe we dont need it cause we've developed technology..i dunno, but anyways i gotta go make dinner.
take it easy.