150511 Random ramblings
And so Mother's Day has passed. We went out eating with the whole family. Quite awkward, but other than that, it was ok. It rained. I remember every year, we have a quite a wet Mother's Day. Don't know about other places, but where I live it always rains when it comes to Mother's Day.
Anyways, I am sooooo into BTS right now. /flails /squeal /fangirls. The 19+vers. of BTS "I Need U" came out yesterday and I was so touched and emotional after watching the whole MV. Of course, I do have to agree with them saying there are a lot of cut scenes making the whole video look like it doesn't even make sense. But, in a way I can understand the MV a bit, in my perspective. Hahah
Ok, so let me see where to start... I will start with Jin - locked up in a room with white flower? I don't really understand it wholly, but I kind of think it has to do with depression and turning into himself, pushing everyone away because of this heartbreak. Later on, you can see that he finally lets the flower go and open the windows and look up the sky, as if promising himself to get himself together and go on with life in a more positive way?
Jungkook - OMG... he gets beaten up badly and it hurts my heart to see him beaten by a 'gang' (manager hyungs). His acting was great! And the way he doesn't fight back! Oh, it takes a lot of courage to hold back and not beat the crap out of someone who beats you. Ok, tbh I don't really understand this part. I have to go watch the MV again.
J-hope - hmmm, trying to overdose himself with those painkillers or pills or whatever they are. Yes, he ended up falling down the ground, but somehow he overcame that and decided to flush those pills away, a sign of a new start and leaving behind every negative experience or whatever it was that had him become like that.
V - ooh! /shudders The feels! The angsty feels. Of all of them, I really felt for V's role. His intensive acting deserves a standing ovation. /claps hands. The way he exploded and took the bottle and smashed it again that man (manager?) and stabbed the man till the man died? I am not sure if that man died, but anyways... the man bled a lot and then he realized what he had done and he cried in agony and most probably shock of his sudden rash action. Hope he gets approached for an acting role in the future so he can show more of his acting skills.
Suga - Aaah... him sleeping on the bed with this sad expression, all lost in his pain...T_T and later in the MV he set the room in fire. Yikes... but maybe a way of letting the past go by burning all bad, old, hurtful memories?
Jimin - Waah... drowning himself in a water tub? Ok. I get this a little, I think. He came out quite good too with this sad and I do not know how to explain - look. Hahaha... the water was quite warm he said in the reaction vid. hahah
Rapmon - I do not understand totally. Sorry!
I wanted to define everything I saw in the vid, but I somehow can not find the right words for it. ORZ...
So, apparantly didn't have a quiet day today. There were quite a lot of customers who came, so I barely had time to take a good breathing or run to the restroom /sigh.
Then I have to hear bad news from my sis and that has to do with my parents. I have nothing to say about what she had told me, because I cannot change their way of thinking. Narrowminded. I think I have the narrowminded thinking from them, because sometimes I catch myself thinking deeply and wondering why I have never tried to set my mind brighter and think more positive things and see things in a much more better light. When I hear or listen to how people portray themselves this and that and what goals they have and how to strive for whatever it is they are striving for, I am awed at the way they think and blame myself for not being like them.
I know I shouldn't think too bad about myself, but I cannot help it if I am taught like that. In a way, I got it from my parents, not how they teach me. /sigh Well, I know I can make a change, but it is hard to do it sometimes I want to quit and just sit there. But, doing that will not bringme anywhere. So I have to make a way to make it work for me and not become like my parents. The way they think is courtesy of how they were taught way back when they were young, I guess.
Wish me luck with trying to become stronger and better :)
Anyways, I am sooooo into BTS right now. /flails /squeal /fangirls. The 19+vers. of BTS "I Need U" came out yesterday and I was so touched and emotional after watching the whole MV. Of course, I do have to agree with them saying there are a lot of cut scenes making the whole video look like it doesn't even make sense. But, in a way I can understand the MV a bit, in my perspective. Hahah
Ok, so let me see where to start... I will start with Jin - locked up in a room with white flower? I don't really understand it wholly, but I kind of think it has to do with depression and turning into himself, pushing everyone away because of this heartbreak. Later on, you can see that he finally lets the flower go and open the windows and look up the sky, as if promising himself to get himself together and go on with life in a more positive way?
Jungkook - OMG... he gets beaten up badly and it hurts my heart to see him beaten by a 'gang' (manager hyungs). His acting was great! And the way he doesn't fight back! Oh, it takes a lot of courage to hold back and not beat the crap out of someone who beats you. Ok, tbh I don't really understand this part. I have to go watch the MV again.
J-hope - hmmm, trying to overdose himself with those painkillers or pills or whatever they are. Yes, he ended up falling down the ground, but somehow he overcame that and decided to flush those pills away, a sign of a new start and leaving behind every negative experience or whatever it was that had him become like that.
V - ooh! /shudders The feels! The angsty feels. Of all of them, I really felt for V's role. His intensive acting deserves a standing ovation. /claps hands. The way he exploded and took the bottle and smashed it again that man (manager?) and stabbed the man till the man died? I am not sure if that man died, but anyways... the man bled a lot and then he realized what he had done and he cried in agony and most probably shock of his sudden rash action. Hope he gets approached for an acting role in the future so he can show more of his acting skills.
Suga - Aaah... him sleeping on the bed with this sad expression, all lost in his pain...T_T and later in the MV he set the room in fire. Yikes... but maybe a way of letting the past go by burning all bad, old, hurtful memories?
Jimin - Waah... drowning himself in a water tub? Ok. I get this a little, I think. He came out quite good too with this sad and I do not know how to explain - look. Hahaha... the water was quite warm he said in the reaction vid. hahah
Rapmon - I do not understand totally. Sorry!
I wanted to define everything I saw in the vid, but I somehow can not find the right words for it. ORZ...
So, apparantly didn't have a quiet day today. There were quite a lot of customers who came, so I barely had time to take a good breathing or run to the restroom /sigh.
Then I have to hear bad news from my sis and that has to do with my parents. I have nothing to say about what she had told me, because I cannot change their way of thinking. Narrowminded. I think I have the narrowminded thinking from them, because sometimes I catch myself thinking deeply and wondering why I have never tried to set my mind brighter and think more positive things and see things in a much more better light. When I hear or listen to how people portray themselves this and that and what goals they have and how to strive for whatever it is they are striving for, I am awed at the way they think and blame myself for not being like them.
I know I shouldn't think too bad about myself, but I cannot help it if I am taught like that. In a way, I got it from my parents, not how they teach me. /sigh Well, I know I can make a change, but it is hard to do it sometimes I want to quit and just sit there. But, doing that will not bringme anywhere. So I have to make a way to make it work for me and not become like my parents. The way they think is courtesy of how they were taught way back when they were young, I guess.
Wish me luck with trying to become stronger and better :)