150428 The week is slowly crawling further
Hmm, I need to read more I see. Realized my vocabulary is slowly becoming worse after I graduated from uni /sigh.
Note to self: have to put that on my To-Do-List --> read more
Speaking of my To-Do-List:
Monday
1. check
2. fail
3. check
Random
So I have noticed recently that my social skills are lacking very, very much. And I have my suspicions as to what the main reason it is I have become like this.
/drum rolls
/dramatic music playing
I have not been taught that well to socialize with my peers.
Yup. Although, there are other reasons too why I lack social skills, but the main reason is the one mentioned above. Sometimes, I wonder how I would be if I have just this courage, even though a little bit more than I have now, and step up to random people to start a conversation. I might have more acquaintances and connections.
They always say to try and make connections while at school. Should have done that back then, but I just mostly sat passively on my chair and observed more or ignored the rest of the world. And the result is me being hostile and the ones I know slowly disappearing out of my life. Not that I really mind that, because they are bound to leave me in the end. I believe in getting to know people in the present, them leaving in the future and make new ones along the way.
All I can say is that had I taken a chance and created a bond with some people, I might not be sitting here, dwelling on my past and wishing for more.
I know I can always change for the better and I am trying hard to do that, but eventually I fall back to my old self. That is why they have the saying: old habits die hard. /sigh
Just recently or more like a few years back, I have realized that I have been quite isolating myself from the real world and keeping myself more busy with the virtual world, more like fandom. I have been keeping myself busy with reading articles, news, fanfictions etc. everything that had to do with my hobby (aka EXO, Super Junior, DBSK, Roommate, Running Man etc.). I can not say that I am obsessed or anything, just that I spend a whole lot of time on the internet than with my real life and that is not healthy. /sigh
And now that I have realized that my social skills are lacking, this is another one of the reason how I have become like this. If there are people out there who knows how to solve this small problem, please do tell me how or what you do to balance your RL with fandom. Thank you in advance :)
Note to self: have to put that on my To-Do-List --> read more
Speaking of my To-Do-List:
Monday
1. check
2. fail
3. check
Random
So I have noticed recently that my social skills are lacking very, very much. And I have my suspicions as to what the main reason it is I have become like this.
/drum rolls
/dramatic music playing
I have not been taught that well to socialize with my peers.
Yup. Although, there are other reasons too why I lack social skills, but the main reason is the one mentioned above. Sometimes, I wonder how I would be if I have just this courage, even though a little bit more than I have now, and step up to random people to start a conversation. I might have more acquaintances and connections.
They always say to try and make connections while at school. Should have done that back then, but I just mostly sat passively on my chair and observed more or ignored the rest of the world. And the result is me being hostile and the ones I know slowly disappearing out of my life. Not that I really mind that, because they are bound to leave me in the end. I believe in getting to know people in the present, them leaving in the future and make new ones along the way.
All I can say is that had I taken a chance and created a bond with some people, I might not be sitting here, dwelling on my past and wishing for more.
I know I can always change for the better and I am trying hard to do that, but eventually I fall back to my old self. That is why they have the saying: old habits die hard. /sigh
Just recently or more like a few years back, I have realized that I have been quite isolating myself from the real world and keeping myself more busy with the virtual world, more like fandom. I have been keeping myself busy with reading articles, news, fanfictions etc. everything that had to do with my hobby (aka EXO, Super Junior, DBSK, Roommate, Running Man etc.). I can not say that I am obsessed or anything, just that I spend a whole lot of time on the internet than with my real life and that is not healthy. /sigh
And now that I have realized that my social skills are lacking, this is another one of the reason how I have become like this. If there are people out there who knows how to solve this small problem, please do tell me how or what you do to balance your RL with fandom. Thank you in advance :)