arghh.
i am such a jackass sometimes. i donno. i hate this. i dont like being involed in conflict. and yet i always find myself wound up on the wrong side of it. plus... i can usually put it off and take a deep breath and whatever. but not when it gets complicated.. ESPECIALLY when it has to do with someone who i love so very much. i feel like such a douche bag... and ass hole... a bitch... a plain old idiot... someone who should be shot. i donno. im going to have to live with the fact, knowing im a terrible friend for the rest of my life. great. i deserve it, but still. i hope things get setteld??
i had so much to complain and express myself about. but now i cant. i feel as if all my problems are so mior and unimportant in the face of this other trauma. oh goodness. i cannot wait for camp :-/
p.s.--thank you lindsay.