And another one!
I couldn't sleep last night.
I think it must have been about 2:30 till 3ish till I drifted off. Then I woke up again at 5ish! I hate insomnia!
Plus it doesn't help when I keep on threating over problems which in the grand scheme of things are actually tiny. I'll probably miss them in a month or so when I find myself a decent issue!
It's just, late at night it's very difficult not to brood on things. Which in turn makes it impossible to sleep! (Plus i was reading 'I am legend' which definitely didn't help!) ;0)
I was also having problems breathing. I'd cleaned my room yesterday - like a few hours of proper cleaning - and I inhaled a load of dust. I was coughing for the entire night! Serves me right - Should clean my room more often - or not at all! (that's a good idea)
So in those late night hours, inbetween my labored breathing, allowing my tiny problems to blow out of all proportion, and imagining that there were a hord of vampires outside, I was hit with a realisation...
...If I had an unlimited amount of money and never had to work again, my life may not be as happy as I'd like to think it would be...honestly - think about it!
Above all other things my main issue with last night was that I'd previously had to much sleep! Why was that? Had no work to get up for - I'm not a disciplined person - if I don't have to get up I won't!
Secondly I've had nothing to focus on over the last few days so I've started looking for problems to solve!
My other argument to this theory is this;
How many times have you looked forward to your weekend or taken a day off (just for you) and later realised that you've done nothing with your day?
I do it all the time!!!
Without a career, without aims and aspirations, it's so easy to allow your days to merge into one. Absolutely no direction!
Don't get me wrong - If I win the lottery I'm not going to say "no thanks, I don't need wealth to be happy" but I think if I had lots of pennys I wouldn't give up work permanently. I think I need that structure in my life.
Awwww...I wonder what I'm going to think about at 3am tomorrow morning - perhaps I'll solve world hunger?
I think it must have been about 2:30 till 3ish till I drifted off. Then I woke up again at 5ish! I hate insomnia!
Plus it doesn't help when I keep on threating over problems which in the grand scheme of things are actually tiny. I'll probably miss them in a month or so when I find myself a decent issue!
It's just, late at night it's very difficult not to brood on things. Which in turn makes it impossible to sleep! (Plus i was reading 'I am legend' which definitely didn't help!) ;0)
I was also having problems breathing. I'd cleaned my room yesterday - like a few hours of proper cleaning - and I inhaled a load of dust. I was coughing for the entire night! Serves me right - Should clean my room more often - or not at all! (that's a good idea)
So in those late night hours, inbetween my labored breathing, allowing my tiny problems to blow out of all proportion, and imagining that there were a hord of vampires outside, I was hit with a realisation...
...If I had an unlimited amount of money and never had to work again, my life may not be as happy as I'd like to think it would be...honestly - think about it!
Above all other things my main issue with last night was that I'd previously had to much sleep! Why was that? Had no work to get up for - I'm not a disciplined person - if I don't have to get up I won't!
Secondly I've had nothing to focus on over the last few days so I've started looking for problems to solve!
My other argument to this theory is this;
How many times have you looked forward to your weekend or taken a day off (just for you) and later realised that you've done nothing with your day?
I do it all the time!!!
Without a career, without aims and aspirations, it's so easy to allow your days to merge into one. Absolutely no direction!
Don't get me wrong - If I win the lottery I'm not going to say "no thanks, I don't need wealth to be happy" but I think if I had lots of pennys I wouldn't give up work permanently. I think I need that structure in my life.
Awwww...I wonder what I'm going to think about at 3am tomorrow morning - perhaps I'll solve world hunger?