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since delivering this amazingly, wonderful, ball of beautiful light and perfection, i have suffered from several changes in my body. things that are, well, shitty. both of my wrists feel like they pop out of joint and hurt all the time, but mostly my right one. i read that you can get pregnancy.induced arthritis, or carpal tunnel and i'm not sure what the difference is between the two, but i think they are similar? correct me if i'm wrong. it could have been years of pushing trays over my head and the pregnancy just tipped it over the edge. end result, it blows. especially in the morning. i have to force myself to pop my wrists back into place and try not to scream when i do it... especially since i have to do it several times. also, i've been getting rashes regularly. first ones were on the bottom of my legs, around my calf muscles, ankles, top of feet. those went away, and starting yesterday i've gotten them on the outer part of my breasts, towards my armpit, inside my thighs, and on my stomach. last but not least, stomach aches almost every day. this coming from a girl who can count how many stomach aches/stomach issues she has had on one finger.
but ziya, she is a note of perfection. the sweetest song i've ever heard every time she pushes out her voice. the softest light from her eyes. i think to myself how impossible it is that i could even have any part in creating something so insufferably magnificent. her deep blue eyes are sage and i have a feeling, rather i know, i will be learning more from her than i could possibly teach her. i am humbled, and privileged that she chose us as a vehicle to get back here. now, i must remind her of a few things she might have lost along the way.
in two days you will be 3 months old. welcome back ziya; we are so glad you made it.
but ziya, she is a note of perfection. the sweetest song i've ever heard every time she pushes out her voice. the softest light from her eyes. i think to myself how impossible it is that i could even have any part in creating something so insufferably magnificent. her deep blue eyes are sage and i have a feeling, rather i know, i will be learning more from her than i could possibly teach her. i am humbled, and privileged that she chose us as a vehicle to get back here. now, i must remind her of a few things she might have lost along the way.
in two days you will be 3 months old. welcome back ziya; we are so glad you made it.