To: Someone I Trust... From: Someone Who Doesn't Know Themself
[Note: This Was Made Last Friday]
Per.6 Pg1 (Front):
To whoever this goes to... probably someone i trust...
eh... 2day @ school was ok... nothin really happened
...lunch was the same as it was the last few days
...sittin with the guys...
...they make fun of me...
it just got to me 2day, idk...
then the whole global map tests gunna suck for a grade and my english test a 78% which is not me...
progress report soon... its gunna be crappy
usually im good @ school... idk its not the same anymore...
my mom was bugging me about chris yesterday and sam was bein hurrased by him... he bugs the shit outta me. its like he controls everyhting. alex says i should punch him. i saw his picture on my all yesteray and i punched that... my hand hurt pretty badly...
idk im not the same anymore...Mencer said i looked depressed 2day and i was...
i dont like me anymore, and others probably dont like me either...
Fall Out Boy is pretty good when i'm in this mood and im definatly not going to cut myself.
My Chucks, i have been wearin lately , reminds me alot about myself... they are like characteristics of myself...
Per.6 Pg1 (Back):
beat up, junky, covered up, old, smelly, ripped, red, different laces, heigh tops, grass stained, sharpied, complete trash...
Beat Up- my past...
junky- my lifestyle
covered up- i try not to show the real me
old- im getting old of myself (i hate me)
smelly- im not smelly.... but i feel cruddy
ripped- many scars shown
red- from the blood i bleed
different laces- to show im never the same
heigh tops- old school-ish
grass stained- i carry many memories that stained me
sharpied- tryin to change myself
something on my shoes represents something about me i guess...
life has turned into something i dred... its boring me...
and these are teh years that im suposed to enjoy... i dont get people anymore
-why must there be so much pain n sorrow?
-how come i am me?
-if im different, does it matter?
-why must my handwrittin suck so bad?
so many questions... never any clear answers
Per.6 Pg2 (Front):
this may seem like a "oh feel sorry for me" note but its definitly not... this is to show that i have to much time on my hands during study hall...
i still dont kno who i am goin to give this to... but whoever you are... please dont think im mental... im in a depressed mood...
yer probably like why did she give this to me??
#1) Yer Someone I Trust
thats all that matters
as i start to think aobut it sometimes i dont have it so bad... or bad at all...
i mean i kno people who have it much worse than i
but who am i actually?
i dont even kno anymore!
isnt that sad?
i think so
do you kno who i am?
~Jennifer~
Per.8 Pg2 (Back):
[added on after fire drill]
i dont think i have found YOU yet...
someone i can truely trust...
i didnt feel like talkin since i wrote this... 2 whole periods... with no words from me...
{words trail off again and are not very read-able at this time}
Per.6 Pg1 (Front):
To whoever this goes to... probably someone i trust...
eh... 2day @ school was ok... nothin really happened
...lunch was the same as it was the last few days
...sittin with the guys...
...they make fun of me...
it just got to me 2day, idk...
then the whole global map tests gunna suck for a grade and my english test a 78% which is not me...
progress report soon... its gunna be crappy
usually im good @ school... idk its not the same anymore...
my mom was bugging me about chris yesterday and sam was bein hurrased by him... he bugs the shit outta me. its like he controls everyhting. alex says i should punch him. i saw his picture on my all yesteray and i punched that... my hand hurt pretty badly...
idk im not the same anymore...Mencer said i looked depressed 2day and i was...
i dont like me anymore, and others probably dont like me either...
Fall Out Boy is pretty good when i'm in this mood and im definatly not going to cut myself.
My Chucks, i have been wearin lately , reminds me alot about myself... they are like characteristics of myself...
Per.6 Pg1 (Back):
beat up, junky, covered up, old, smelly, ripped, red, different laces, heigh tops, grass stained, sharpied, complete trash...
Beat Up- my past...
junky- my lifestyle
covered up- i try not to show the real me
old- im getting old of myself (i hate me)
smelly- im not smelly.... but i feel cruddy
ripped- many scars shown
red- from the blood i bleed
different laces- to show im never the same
heigh tops- old school-ish
grass stained- i carry many memories that stained me
sharpied- tryin to change myself
something on my shoes represents something about me i guess...
life has turned into something i dred... its boring me...
and these are teh years that im suposed to enjoy... i dont get people anymore
-why must there be so much pain n sorrow?
-how come i am me?
-if im different, does it matter?
-why must my handwrittin suck so bad?
so many questions... never any clear answers
Per.6 Pg2 (Front):
this may seem like a "oh feel sorry for me" note but its definitly not... this is to show that i have to much time on my hands during study hall...
i still dont kno who i am goin to give this to... but whoever you are... please dont think im mental... im in a depressed mood...
yer probably like why did she give this to me??
#1) Yer Someone I Trust
thats all that matters
as i start to think aobut it sometimes i dont have it so bad... or bad at all...
i mean i kno people who have it much worse than i
but who am i actually?
i dont even kno anymore!
isnt that sad?
i think so
do you kno who i am?
~Jennifer~
Per.8 Pg2 (Back):
[added on after fire drill]
i dont think i have found YOU yet...
someone i can truely trust...
i didnt feel like talkin since i wrote this... 2 whole periods... with no words from me...
{words trail off again and are not very read-able at this time}