[fic] A Baby's Dream
Month 1
Mommy, I'm floating in your tummy. Don't you feel me? Probably not, I'm still so tiny. God said he will give me a chance to have a happy life. I want to grow and learn about you mommy. I can feel big shakes. Is it because your hungry? And those sounds, are you laughing mommy?
. . .
Mommy, wait for me!
~~~~~
Month 2
Mommy, I got a little bigger! Well, I feel like a grew a bit bigger. Hehe~can you feel me yet? I can float by myself now, like, uhm, controlling myself? Oh but I always lose my balance when you run into something.Whenever you run into something, it always happens again and again and again. Is it a sport or something? Maybe you can tell me when I get out of here! But first I want to just sit here and listen to your whispers. Whenever I hear you say faster, all I can think is 'hold on mommy! I need to just finish growing okay?'
. . .
Mommy, I'm still growing for you!
~~~~~
Month 3
Mommy, I'm growing I'm growing~! Whenever one of those floating strings touch me I laugh. Why is that? It makes me tingle.
Mommy, how come I haven't heard you laugh? Does it tinkle like bells? I bet you it does because I know your a betiful mommy. hehe~ I wonder is my daddy as betiful too? I can't say betiful correctly like I hear you say it. I'm sorry mommy.
I overheard something, what is abortion? Is it a toy? Well I can't play with toys yet, I only have fingerprints! yup!
. . .
Mommy, I want to hear you talk to me!
~~~~~
Month 4
Hey Mommy, why are you angry? When your angry, I feel angry. Did someone hurt you? Are you in pain? I hope you are okay, don't worry I will hug you when I get out. I promise! Mommy, when that weird flash comes into your tummy, I can not help but blink and get angry. It bothers me, why does the flash shine so bright? Oh, you sound angry still. Maybe I'll go back to sleep..
. . .
Mommy, please smile!
~~~~~
Month 5
Mommy, whenever you move around I get excited. It means I'm having more adventures with you! Oh, but you never caress your tummy mommy. Why is that? Daddy doesn't do it either. I was just wondering how come? I've been so tired lately, maybe I will sleep again. *hiccup* Oh! hehe it makes me tingle too!
. . .
Mommy, remember my tingles?
~~~~~
Month 6
Mommy, I have grown huh? Aren't you proud, aren't you happy? I'm almost ready to live outside your tummy. But it's so warm in here...will I be ready? You seem down lately mommy, how come I don't see Daddy anymore? And when we do he's always touching you..but then I hear shouts and screaming. Is everything gonna be okay? I hear the word abortion again, I wanna know what it means. Mommy, you seem angry again..
. . .
Mommy, you keep getting angry.
~~~~~
Month 7
Mommy, I'm growing bigger. Have I been hurting you with my sudden growth? hehe~guess what mommy?! I've been having dreams. I dream of being with you mommy, holding your hand and giving you kisses on the nose! We were spending time together and you would pat my head saying, 'Sarangheyo' . I want this dream to happen, I'm excited to see you! Are you excited to see me mommy?
. . .
Mommy, Sarangheyo.
~~~~~
Month 8
Mommy, I feel like I'm going to see you soon! But I'm sad right now. I'm sorry for causing you to be in pain with my kicking. I keep dreaming about bad things mommy. You didn't want me by your side and you wanted to get rid of me. Mommy, the very bad part is that I never got to see your face. All I could hear was your laugh and I thought, 'how come you are laughing?' Mommy this won't happen right? You love me right? No..I believe that you love me because all Mommies love their babies!
. . .
Mommy, you love me right?
~~~~~
Month 9
Mommy, Mommy, Mommy! I feel it! I'm ready to come out of your tummy! Hehe, I can't wait to see you and hear your voice clearly! Then all my happy dreams will come true!
. . .
Mommy, here I come!
~~~~~
She sighed, all that pain and struggle to get one damn kid out of her, resting her head against the pillow after the horrible ordeal. The one kid that ruined it all for her and her boyfriend. How badly she wanted an abortion, but by the time she found out it was too late. The kid was already developing beyond the limit of having an abortion for her. So she had to suffer 9 months with a kid she doesn't want and she lost her boyfriend too. 'Great life I have huh?'
She heard the shuffle of the nurses and doctors, as well as the annoying cry of the baby. She looked at the kid with a loathsome glare as the nurse, who was holding the kid, headed towards her bed with it.
"Ma'am. Your child, would you like to hold her?"
She looked at the kid and laughed bitterly, "I don't want to hold her. I don't even want her."
She was sure the nurse was surprised with her words but she didn't give a damn. She gave 9 months to the kid but she never intended to give more than that. That was final. She is not keeping the kid.
"But Ma'am..she's yours..if you didn't want her then how come you didn't get an abor-" She cut off the too nice-looking of a nurse and attempted to slap her hand away, too bad she retracted herself and the kid away. "Don't you get it? I don't want her. It was too fucking late to have an abortion. I want all of you out of my sight. I'm giving her up for adoption. End. Of. Story."
The nurse looked at the newborn baby, who's eyes never even saw the mother that gave her life. 'Unwillingly', she added. Sighing sadly, she nodded and hustled herself out of the room. She shook her head at the staff who all overheard the outburst of her latest patient. As the nurse headed towards the nursery room her eyes grew watery when she realized the child wasn't given a name.
"You poor child. Oh God, please, help this child find a loving home.."
~~~~~
Mommy? How come I was never held in your arms?
Is something wrong?
...
You don't want me?
You don't love me?
Did I do something bad?
I'm sorry! I'm sorry!
Please take me back mommy, please don't leave me!
I want you to hold me and kiss me and say I love you!
...
I want to talk to you and tell you I love you. I want to open my eyes and see you.
But you don't want me, I'm a bad person. Because now you hate me..
"You poor child. Oh God, please, help this child find a loving home.."
Mommy..we were together for so long..but..you never told me that..you loved me.
, . .
Mommy, I want you to love me..
~~~~~
"bleeeeh!"
"bweeee"
"agah!"
"hagueah!"
"nguuh"
"...the hell are you doing?!"
There sat Doojoon, making faces at the birds outside the balcony; bored out of his mind. BEAST had been given a month to relax and recuperate before getting their next album ready. Given a month, it is understandable to get bored on one of their days. But, you see, it was only their first day of break.
"I'm bored Junhyung. What does it look like I'm doing?" Doojoon remarked sarcastically as he looked up to meet his boyfriend's eyes.
"Why so moody, oh fierce leader?" Coming from their bedroom, Hyunseung, despite looking bored as well, smirked teasingly.
"Shut up. I want to do something. No one even attempted to cook breakfast yet!"
"Yah hyung! Don't you remember? Manager-hyung said we're going to visit the hospital today, his sister just got out of surgery." Dongwoon, as well as Yoseob, stumbled out of their room messily. They both headed to the kitchen to start breakfast or they would suffer Doojoon's nagging all day. After them Kikwang walked out of the room and headed towards Yoseob, hugging him from behind, "Hyung! Let's go get some ice cream on the way back! It's getting warm, so I want to enjoy the day"
Doojoon groaned when a chorus of agreement rang around the room and so he decided to bang his head against the window. Sighing since he scared all his bird friends he got up to get ready for the trip to the hospital.
After a little while, when the manager arrived at BEAST's dorm, all six members were ready to go and talking about what kind of games to play during their ride to the hospital. Well all except for Doojoon, who continued to mumble about having a headache. Overhearing him Junhyung chuckled and kissed him softly, "Wasn't a smart idea to hit your head on the window huh babe?"
Naturally, Doojoon whacked him.
~~~~~
Arriving at the hospital, they were told to wait until the manager's sister woke up. The six Beast members grew tiresome just sitting around, especially Kikwang. While Kikwang was stroking Yoseob's hair, he remembered that they had passed a Nursery sign on the way to the patient's room. Kikwang grabbed his boyfriend's hand and gestured for the other members to follow.
"Where are we going Kwangie?" Yoseob was curious to see why Kikwang was so eager all of a sudden. At first he thought he wanted to get more touchy but that thought was quickly erased when Kikwang asked the others to follow. 'I'm pretty sure an orgy isn't on anyone's mind at all.' Yoseob inwardly cringed at that prospect. "Ew."
"Huh? This is 'ew' to you Seobie?" Yoseob's attention tuned back to Kikwang when he heard the confusion in his voice. Looking up, he realized that they were at the Nursery Rhyme and everyone was huddled up against a window. Forgetting his disturbing thoughts, it was his turn to drag his boyfriend to his desired location. "Yah! Move! I want to see the babies also!"
Looking around, he giggled and pointed to all the cute infants, making faces and tapping the window to get their attention. As he continued to play around, he noticed there was a room beside the entrance labeled "Play Room" . Curious Yoseob asked a passing nurse what the play room was for.
"The Play Room is where we put babies and toddlers who can't leave the hospital yet to play. Visitors are allowed in...would you like to see?" Yoseob grinned, chirping a "Yes!" in reply. The nurse took the Beast members and led them to the Play Room, as she opened the door they were all greeted with loud and happy children. Some were playing on their own and some were with nurses; playing.
"Seobie-hyung, I think we just found your rightful place." Hyunseung chuckled when Yoseob pouted and punched him in the shoulder, then turning to Dongwoon he squeezed his hand, encouraging Dongwoon to speak. "Uhm, Miss..why are their babies in here with nurses? Isn't it a bit weird that the parents aren't here with them to learn and play?" Dongwoon asked his question when he noticed one little girl in particular. 'She looks too young to be in here without her parents.'
The other 6, including the nurse, followed his gaze towards the crawling baby. "Ah, she is actually the youngest orphaned child here. She was, well," Staring at every one of the members seriously she wanted to know if they can be trusted, "I know you guys are famous idols and everything. But I trust you guys for some odd reason, so I'm only going to break this rule once. Can I trust every single one of you?"
Yoon Doojoon, Jang Hyunseung, Yong Junhyung, Yang Yoseob, Lee Kikwang, and Son Dongwoon all looked at each other and nodded, easing the worry of the nurse. "Thank goodness," lowering her voice she focused on the boys, "you see, she," gesturing to the baby girl, "is the youngest, parent-less child here. She was...abandoned the minute her mother realized that she was out of her womb. She's been watched here for the past 7 months, but on the day she becomes a year old we have to bring her to an orphanage. We would like a couple, at least, to adopt her as soon as possible...she's just an angel isn't she?"
Yoseob and the other 5 members were horrified to hear that the little girl never even had a parent to be by her side. Approaching her, he asked if he could play with the baby. When the nurse agreed he knelt down and cooed at her, causing giggles to erupt from her small frame. The rest of Beast followed suit and played with the baby girl, letting her crawl to each and every one of them, as well as being carried in their arms.
"Miss does she have a name?" Kikwang asked, puckering up his face at the baby and making raspberries at her. After having yet another giggling fit he let her down and he faced the nurse, giving her a puzzled face. The nurse sighed and looked sadly at the baby girl, "Unfortunately not. I was the one who delivered the baby but I, nor anyone else, had any idea what to name her. She still has no name..we just call her sweetie or honey."
The little angel made eye contact with Yoseob and giggled. She was crawling her way towards Yoseob and raised one arm; making sure Yoseob got the message. And he did. Picking her up, Yoseob looked at the baby's eyes and smiled softly.
"How about we name you BomRoo?"
~~~~~
Mommy, I met some people. There was six of them, they didn't look like you. They didn't look like you or the pretty people here at the play land. They had short hair and didn't have any big round things on top of their stomach. But the six people all played with me and they gave me a tingling feeling in my tummy.
I like them.
Mommy, I hope they don't leave me also..
~The story does not end here, I'll be having a sequel~
I hope you liked the story!
Mommy, I'm floating in your tummy. Don't you feel me? Probably not, I'm still so tiny. God said he will give me a chance to have a happy life. I want to grow and learn about you mommy. I can feel big shakes. Is it because your hungry? And those sounds, are you laughing mommy?
. . .
Mommy, wait for me!
~~~~~
Month 2
Mommy, I got a little bigger! Well, I feel like a grew a bit bigger. Hehe~can you feel me yet? I can float by myself now, like, uhm, controlling myself? Oh but I always lose my balance when you run into something.Whenever you run into something, it always happens again and again and again. Is it a sport or something? Maybe you can tell me when I get out of here! But first I want to just sit here and listen to your whispers. Whenever I hear you say faster, all I can think is 'hold on mommy! I need to just finish growing okay?'
. . .
Mommy, I'm still growing for you!
~~~~~
Month 3
Mommy, I'm growing I'm growing~! Whenever one of those floating strings touch me I laugh. Why is that? It makes me tingle.
Mommy, how come I haven't heard you laugh? Does it tinkle like bells? I bet you it does because I know your a betiful mommy. hehe~ I wonder is my daddy as betiful too? I can't say betiful correctly like I hear you say it. I'm sorry mommy.
I overheard something, what is abortion? Is it a toy? Well I can't play with toys yet, I only have fingerprints! yup!
. . .
Mommy, I want to hear you talk to me!
~~~~~
Month 4
Hey Mommy, why are you angry? When your angry, I feel angry. Did someone hurt you? Are you in pain? I hope you are okay, don't worry I will hug you when I get out. I promise! Mommy, when that weird flash comes into your tummy, I can not help but blink and get angry. It bothers me, why does the flash shine so bright? Oh, you sound angry still. Maybe I'll go back to sleep..
. . .
Mommy, please smile!
~~~~~
Month 5
Mommy, whenever you move around I get excited. It means I'm having more adventures with you! Oh, but you never caress your tummy mommy. Why is that? Daddy doesn't do it either. I was just wondering how come? I've been so tired lately, maybe I will sleep again. *hiccup* Oh! hehe it makes me tingle too!
. . .
Mommy, remember my tingles?
~~~~~
Month 6
Mommy, I have grown huh? Aren't you proud, aren't you happy? I'm almost ready to live outside your tummy. But it's so warm in here...will I be ready? You seem down lately mommy, how come I don't see Daddy anymore? And when we do he's always touching you..but then I hear shouts and screaming. Is everything gonna be okay? I hear the word abortion again, I wanna know what it means. Mommy, you seem angry again..
. . .
Mommy, you keep getting angry.
~~~~~
Month 7
Mommy, I'm growing bigger. Have I been hurting you with my sudden growth? hehe~guess what mommy?! I've been having dreams. I dream of being with you mommy, holding your hand and giving you kisses on the nose! We were spending time together and you would pat my head saying, 'Sarangheyo' . I want this dream to happen, I'm excited to see you! Are you excited to see me mommy?
. . .
Mommy, Sarangheyo.
~~~~~
Month 8
Mommy, I feel like I'm going to see you soon! But I'm sad right now. I'm sorry for causing you to be in pain with my kicking. I keep dreaming about bad things mommy. You didn't want me by your side and you wanted to get rid of me. Mommy, the very bad part is that I never got to see your face. All I could hear was your laugh and I thought, 'how come you are laughing?' Mommy this won't happen right? You love me right? No..I believe that you love me because all Mommies love their babies!
. . .
Mommy, you love me right?
~~~~~
Month 9
Mommy, Mommy, Mommy! I feel it! I'm ready to come out of your tummy! Hehe, I can't wait to see you and hear your voice clearly! Then all my happy dreams will come true!
. . .
Mommy, here I come!
~~~~~
She sighed, all that pain and struggle to get one damn kid out of her, resting her head against the pillow after the horrible ordeal. The one kid that ruined it all for her and her boyfriend. How badly she wanted an abortion, but by the time she found out it was too late. The kid was already developing beyond the limit of having an abortion for her. So she had to suffer 9 months with a kid she doesn't want and she lost her boyfriend too. 'Great life I have huh?'
She heard the shuffle of the nurses and doctors, as well as the annoying cry of the baby. She looked at the kid with a loathsome glare as the nurse, who was holding the kid, headed towards her bed with it.
"Ma'am. Your child, would you like to hold her?"
She looked at the kid and laughed bitterly, "I don't want to hold her. I don't even want her."
She was sure the nurse was surprised with her words but she didn't give a damn. She gave 9 months to the kid but she never intended to give more than that. That was final. She is not keeping the kid.
"But Ma'am..she's yours..if you didn't want her then how come you didn't get an abor-" She cut off the too nice-looking of a nurse and attempted to slap her hand away, too bad she retracted herself and the kid away. "Don't you get it? I don't want her. It was too fucking late to have an abortion. I want all of you out of my sight. I'm giving her up for adoption. End. Of. Story."
The nurse looked at the newborn baby, who's eyes never even saw the mother that gave her life. 'Unwillingly', she added. Sighing sadly, she nodded and hustled herself out of the room. She shook her head at the staff who all overheard the outburst of her latest patient. As the nurse headed towards the nursery room her eyes grew watery when she realized the child wasn't given a name.
"You poor child. Oh God, please, help this child find a loving home.."
~~~~~
Mommy? How come I was never held in your arms?
Is something wrong?
...
You don't want me?
You don't love me?
Did I do something bad?
I'm sorry! I'm sorry!
Please take me back mommy, please don't leave me!
I want you to hold me and kiss me and say I love you!
...
I want to talk to you and tell you I love you. I want to open my eyes and see you.
But you don't want me, I'm a bad person. Because now you hate me..
"You poor child. Oh God, please, help this child find a loving home.."
Mommy..we were together for so long..but..you never told me that..you loved me.
, . .
Mommy, I want you to love me..
~~~~~
"bleeeeh!"
"bweeee"
"agah!"
"hagueah!"
"nguuh"
"...the hell are you doing?!"
There sat Doojoon, making faces at the birds outside the balcony; bored out of his mind. BEAST had been given a month to relax and recuperate before getting their next album ready. Given a month, it is understandable to get bored on one of their days. But, you see, it was only their first day of break.
"I'm bored Junhyung. What does it look like I'm doing?" Doojoon remarked sarcastically as he looked up to meet his boyfriend's eyes.
"Why so moody, oh fierce leader?" Coming from their bedroom, Hyunseung, despite looking bored as well, smirked teasingly.
"Shut up. I want to do something. No one even attempted to cook breakfast yet!"
"Yah hyung! Don't you remember? Manager-hyung said we're going to visit the hospital today, his sister just got out of surgery." Dongwoon, as well as Yoseob, stumbled out of their room messily. They both headed to the kitchen to start breakfast or they would suffer Doojoon's nagging all day. After them Kikwang walked out of the room and headed towards Yoseob, hugging him from behind, "Hyung! Let's go get some ice cream on the way back! It's getting warm, so I want to enjoy the day"
Doojoon groaned when a chorus of agreement rang around the room and so he decided to bang his head against the window. Sighing since he scared all his bird friends he got up to get ready for the trip to the hospital.
After a little while, when the manager arrived at BEAST's dorm, all six members were ready to go and talking about what kind of games to play during their ride to the hospital. Well all except for Doojoon, who continued to mumble about having a headache. Overhearing him Junhyung chuckled and kissed him softly, "Wasn't a smart idea to hit your head on the window huh babe?"
Naturally, Doojoon whacked him.
~~~~~
Arriving at the hospital, they were told to wait until the manager's sister woke up. The six Beast members grew tiresome just sitting around, especially Kikwang. While Kikwang was stroking Yoseob's hair, he remembered that they had passed a Nursery sign on the way to the patient's room. Kikwang grabbed his boyfriend's hand and gestured for the other members to follow.
"Where are we going Kwangie?" Yoseob was curious to see why Kikwang was so eager all of a sudden. At first he thought he wanted to get more touchy but that thought was quickly erased when Kikwang asked the others to follow. 'I'm pretty sure an orgy isn't on anyone's mind at all.' Yoseob inwardly cringed at that prospect. "Ew."
"Huh? This is 'ew' to you Seobie?" Yoseob's attention tuned back to Kikwang when he heard the confusion in his voice. Looking up, he realized that they were at the Nursery Rhyme and everyone was huddled up against a window. Forgetting his disturbing thoughts, it was his turn to drag his boyfriend to his desired location. "Yah! Move! I want to see the babies also!"
Looking around, he giggled and pointed to all the cute infants, making faces and tapping the window to get their attention. As he continued to play around, he noticed there was a room beside the entrance labeled "Play Room" . Curious Yoseob asked a passing nurse what the play room was for.
"The Play Room is where we put babies and toddlers who can't leave the hospital yet to play. Visitors are allowed in...would you like to see?" Yoseob grinned, chirping a "Yes!" in reply. The nurse took the Beast members and led them to the Play Room, as she opened the door they were all greeted with loud and happy children. Some were playing on their own and some were with nurses; playing.
"Seobie-hyung, I think we just found your rightful place." Hyunseung chuckled when Yoseob pouted and punched him in the shoulder, then turning to Dongwoon he squeezed his hand, encouraging Dongwoon to speak. "Uhm, Miss..why are their babies in here with nurses? Isn't it a bit weird that the parents aren't here with them to learn and play?" Dongwoon asked his question when he noticed one little girl in particular. 'She looks too young to be in here without her parents.'
The other 6, including the nurse, followed his gaze towards the crawling baby. "Ah, she is actually the youngest orphaned child here. She was, well," Staring at every one of the members seriously she wanted to know if they can be trusted, "I know you guys are famous idols and everything. But I trust you guys for some odd reason, so I'm only going to break this rule once. Can I trust every single one of you?"
Yoon Doojoon, Jang Hyunseung, Yong Junhyung, Yang Yoseob, Lee Kikwang, and Son Dongwoon all looked at each other and nodded, easing the worry of the nurse. "Thank goodness," lowering her voice she focused on the boys, "you see, she," gesturing to the baby girl, "is the youngest, parent-less child here. She was...abandoned the minute her mother realized that she was out of her womb. She's been watched here for the past 7 months, but on the day she becomes a year old we have to bring her to an orphanage. We would like a couple, at least, to adopt her as soon as possible...she's just an angel isn't she?"
Yoseob and the other 5 members were horrified to hear that the little girl never even had a parent to be by her side. Approaching her, he asked if he could play with the baby. When the nurse agreed he knelt down and cooed at her, causing giggles to erupt from her small frame. The rest of Beast followed suit and played with the baby girl, letting her crawl to each and every one of them, as well as being carried in their arms.
"Miss does she have a name?" Kikwang asked, puckering up his face at the baby and making raspberries at her. After having yet another giggling fit he let her down and he faced the nurse, giving her a puzzled face. The nurse sighed and looked sadly at the baby girl, "Unfortunately not. I was the one who delivered the baby but I, nor anyone else, had any idea what to name her. She still has no name..we just call her sweetie or honey."
The little angel made eye contact with Yoseob and giggled. She was crawling her way towards Yoseob and raised one arm; making sure Yoseob got the message. And he did. Picking her up, Yoseob looked at the baby's eyes and smiled softly.
"How about we name you BomRoo?"
~~~~~
Mommy, I met some people. There was six of them, they didn't look like you. They didn't look like you or the pretty people here at the play land. They had short hair and didn't have any big round things on top of their stomach. But the six people all played with me and they gave me a tingling feeling in my tummy.
I like them.
Mommy, I hope they don't leave me also..
~The story does not end here, I'll be having a sequel~
I hope you liked the story!