the biggest ass in the world :(
You know what?! Here it is, the day before I start my junior year of highschool, and I realize that I am the source of my problems/dissapointments. Took me a while, but it's kind of nice AND depressing to know that half my problems could have been prevented. I read in someone's livejournal about a time that they did something to me, and how I treated them like a total ass when they tried to apologize and be my friend again :( And now I look at this person, and I wonder why we never hang out, and why we're not as close as we were, and I realize that it's all my fault! I feel so bad--this summer I've been thinking about how I really wish me and him could have stayed friends, and I've been wondering what ever happened to change the awesome friendship that we had, and I realize that it's because of something I said when he did apoligize. I had completely forgotten about this whole "fight" we had until I read it in his livejournal today--he doesn't even post in there anymore; I don't know if he even remembers he HAS one :( (I was bored and saw an unfamiliar livejournal name, and clicked it to find out who it was, and that's how I found this "fight" and now I know that the reason him and I hardly hang out anymore is because I told him he never WAS my best friend) I feel like the worst person alive because I did that--it took me TWO YEARS to realize what I'd done, and now I have to live with the fact that I ended the best friendship I ever had.