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I haven't talked to my girlfriend in two days. I don't even know if she's my girlfriend anymore. I don't know what to do. There's definitely something still between us, at least for me. And while I realize that, I don't know if it makes much sense to go on, as we've clearly been drifting apart. I've been trying not to think about it. I want to call her. I want to say I'm sorry. I'm trying to stay strong, but I feel like I'm pissing away something good.
This relationship has made me think differently about relationships. This is the first time I've ever thought something could last and be significant. And I think that's scaring me away from it. Which is weird, because that used to be all I ever wanted. So, I guess the question is: What do I want? I know what she wants.
I talked to my dad about this. He gave me many a-dissaproving-look. "You might regret this one, son."
I'm breaking down. I don't know what to do.
This relationship has made me think differently about relationships. This is the first time I've ever thought something could last and be significant. And I think that's scaring me away from it. Which is weird, because that used to be all I ever wanted. So, I guess the question is: What do I want? I know what she wants.
I talked to my dad about this. He gave me many a-dissaproving-look. "You might regret this one, son."
I'm breaking down. I don't know what to do.