Guilt
You know I think I suffer from irrational and unreasonable personal feelings of remorse. Every now and again, not constantly I'll grant, I'm overcome with the desperate urge to apologize to everyone I've ever met for everything I've ever done. This can not be healthy! Especially as I do not believe in apologies. I think they're a rather silly thing to be honest. If you apologize it sort of invalidates the act. So you then have to wonder what you did it for. I'm not making much sense. Erm... Never mind, it's one of those things that makes sense to me and to anyone to happens to understand me absolutely and perfectly and knows me so well they can hear me think. Sex should not be a trivial thing, I resent myself for making it so. Maybe I owe myself an apology; in light of the previous discussion perhaps I can do something better. We'll see. Do you believe in love? Love is interesting isn't it? What if you don't meet someone your right for, never fall in love... None of this oh you'll find someone [insert expletive] because you don't know that. I'll accept that 21 is too young to worry about that but it's not all that young and I worry regardless. I am as my year five teacher told my grandmother a worry merchant. If only someone could tell me where I could find Mr Right. I mean how am I expected to find someone? Ow.