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Ugh, felt motivated to get back to people (I know I've been totally awol for at least the past month) tonight but I'm seriously D: over some of my messages, because I know I didn't receive an email notification for them. I didn't think I had that many people to get back too.
This past weekend I finally opened up the box of doujin from Tokyo. I was supposed to have off Tuesday, and I planned to go through the whole box and write up a list and make sure people still wanted their books after this time (my fault, not others, so completely acceptable), but I was too depressed that morning that I called work and begged them to let me come in and take my vacation day another day.
This is where I get all depressing.
Not to be all, blaaah, woe is me, but one of my best friends passed away last Thursday. Her car hit a truck head on and she passed away from injuries. She was a really great person and a lot of our interaction was through volunteer circles.
So, yeah. If I seem kinda not chatty in my return comments/messages/emails, sorry. I love you all, I'm just trying to get shit done.
I mean, I was already pretty depressed before (with my procrastinating and focusing on just alpacas) but I'm all freaking hormonal right now. Even thinking about last Thursday is getting me teary-eyed and emotional. Thank god I'm in public and shame is keeping me from bursting into tears.
I haven't said anything to anyone in real life about it, except one person, but it was on gChat. Does it make sense I can't even say it out loud? Fuck, I'm such a mess. I couldn't even get it together to go on the dates I had scheduled.
But, yeah. Getting back to everything.
This past weekend I finally opened up the box of doujin from Tokyo. I was supposed to have off Tuesday, and I planned to go through the whole box and write up a list and make sure people still wanted their books after this time (my fault, not others, so completely acceptable), but I was too depressed that morning that I called work and begged them to let me come in and take my vacation day another day.
This is where I get all depressing.
Not to be all, blaaah, woe is me, but one of my best friends passed away last Thursday. Her car hit a truck head on and she passed away from injuries. She was a really great person and a lot of our interaction was through volunteer circles.
So, yeah. If I seem kinda not chatty in my return comments/messages/emails, sorry. I love you all, I'm just trying to get shit done.
I mean, I was already pretty depressed before (with my procrastinating and focusing on just alpacas) but I'm all freaking hormonal right now. Even thinking about last Thursday is getting me teary-eyed and emotional. Thank god I'm in public and shame is keeping me from bursting into tears.
I haven't said anything to anyone in real life about it, except one person, but it was on gChat. Does it make sense I can't even say it out loud? Fuck, I'm such a mess. I couldn't even get it together to go on the dates I had scheduled.
But, yeah. Getting back to everything.