Today has been a horrible day...

[littleravyn]

It started out fine except I keep having dreams about horrible life-ending car accidents involving Pablo and our children. I also keep having dreams that Big Joe dies during his surgery (happening this Thursday) or he has a reaction like Pablo's grandfather and then can't communicate or anything. I attempted some retail therapy (even though we SO CANNOT AFFORD IT) and bought Gabriel a much needed pair of sneakers for the park/playground/outside adventures. I also bought Gabriel a frappacino (non-coffee) because that is what he wanted for his potty reward. He's been doing so well lately. Somehow one/both of our dogs have worms. We can't afford the vet. I want them gone. I've given up on finding homes for them...I really just don't care (today, anyway) what happens to them anymore. Adrian has a cold. Gabriel wanted to see MaMa and Papa so we went to see Betty and Big Joe and played there until it was time to go. I fixed them dinner there before we left. We got home and I started gathering things to ready them for bed and they were playing in the living room. I went to check on them before running upstairs for wipes and Gabriel was about to push Adrian out of the way to keep him from playing with the toy lizard and everything happened in slow motion: I told Gabriel not to push Adrian (he did anyway sort of by accident) and he knocked Adrian getting the lizard...Adrian flipped over their little couch and landed mouth first on the wood floor biting off a good-sized chunk of upper lip. Gabriel started saying he was sorry and looked so scared...there was blood everywhere. It was horrible. I finally calmed both of them down and got them ready for bed. They are now sleeping but every once in a while Adrian will whimper a little bit. The house is a mess and the lady from church who is the potential babysitter is coming for dinner tomorrow to get acquainted with everyone. I have a job interview for a PT position at the bank on Wednesday...which probably won't work out considering that is the first day of classes. I have a bad feeling about the position anyway...and no clue why.

I suppose I'll write more later...