caution: whining ahead
I keep looking for some answers as to why I am such a fatty and I encounter nothing but crap I already know, which is all bullshit lies as far as I am concerned.
No, this is not denial, really.
Every calculator and calculation I have used puts my RMR or BMR - resting or basal metabolic rate - around 1720.
After factoring in my activity level of working out 3-4 days a week using the Harris Benedict formula I supposedly burn 2662.435 calories a day, which seems high.
Still, even if I did no activity all week but work, the formula indicates I would burn 2061.24 calories.
In theory, in order to lose weight you need to create a 500 calorie per day deficit.
Assume, based on my seemingly snails pace metabolism, I burn 2361.8375 calories - the average of what I should burn based on what I do, and what I would burn if I did virtually nothing but work.
If this is true I run at a daily deficit of 600-800 calories.
Even if I burned on the complete low end of nothing the deficit would still be 460 calories.
If the stupid formula were accurate, I would be running a hefty 1000-1200 calorie deficit.
Also, lets mention that I track everything I eat and drink.
I don't drink any soda, tea, coffee, vitamin water, or energy drinks, other than my 12 calories of Sugar Free Red Bull on occasion.
I drink water, lots and lots of water, and maybe if I feel like a rebel 12oz of orange juice in a day.
No fast food, no fried food, and a limited enough selection of items that everyone in my family hates trying to go out to eat with me.
The calories I consume from fat range around 22 percent, which is also damn good. I admit there is usually one day per week I screw up an end up around 30 percent, still, not terrible considering any fat I consume comes from primarily avocado, steak, and egg.
Somehow I manage to lose nothing and in fact, gain weight.
And oh yes, I have been on this workout and food regime since August of last year.
Okay, I fell off the wagon for two weeks in December... but still, at least 85 percent conformity overall.
Okay, so my lean body mass is 140 lbs., which is a good thing, because that is 20-30 lbs. more muscle, bone and organs than the average woman... wouldn't it be brilliant if the excess were really all muscle though.
Either way, I am still, at last professional calculation, 30.1% fat, for my 201.98 lbs. which sucks.
It is not as if I started that much heavier either, well, I have lost 13 lbs. but that happened in the first month, and since then, nothing.
The point of all this is that I feel pretty damn depressed, and honestly, I would seek some medical community knowledge and assistance if I felt I would be taken even remotely seriously.
However, I tried this before, and nothing seems to indicate the response I receive will be any different than previous responses, which were basically looks of distrust and dismissal highlighted by nutrition and exercise information to which I already conform.
Emotionally I can never decide if it is a risk worth taking, just going in exasperated and throwing yourself on the mercy of science, knowing that science is quietly laughing at you.
I still submit, if they believed the data, I would either prove to be a gross anomaly, or they would deny belief in an attempt to cover up the truth - some people are just screwed and there is no reason science can decipher.