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So, I am writing here because I was trying to work on my points and authorities for legal writing, which I suck at, and hate.
The attorney of the house started quizzing me tonight and I snapped.
I haven't looked at my paper since, and though I realize I am sabotaging myself, I do not care.
Maybe I do care, but the only thing I want right now is to feel like I have my own life, which is something far beyond the current possibilities in this situation. I keep thinking if I had just one positive release it would not be so terrible, and I trudge to the gym trying to shake the stagnancy, but it doesn't matter what I do, the only thing I can think about is spring break, summer vacation, palm trees, barbecue and some beer.
I know the whole point of this is that they try to break you, but yet again, I do not care.
Ugh, there has got to be a point to all this. Oh wait, the point might emerge by the time I am thirty, if I am lucky, if I even make it to thirty.
The attorney of the house started quizzing me tonight and I snapped.
I haven't looked at my paper since, and though I realize I am sabotaging myself, I do not care.
Maybe I do care, but the only thing I want right now is to feel like I have my own life, which is something far beyond the current possibilities in this situation. I keep thinking if I had just one positive release it would not be so terrible, and I trudge to the gym trying to shake the stagnancy, but it doesn't matter what I do, the only thing I can think about is spring break, summer vacation, palm trees, barbecue and some beer.
I know the whole point of this is that they try to break you, but yet again, I do not care.
Ugh, there has got to be a point to all this. Oh wait, the point might emerge by the time I am thirty, if I am lucky, if I even make it to thirty.