it's not the end
it's been a while since i last updated but to be honest things have just been so crazy busy that i havent had anytime. i wish i even had the time - well that and the heart to sit down and type it all dout right now but im not sure i do. today was a LONG day at school. testing was incredibly STUPID and i couldn't wait for it to be over. big food fight in lunch today...haha it was fun! then um ya casey and i ran after school and then she actually came over and we cleaned my room big time and it's GORGEOUS now!
so much has changed in my life over the last couple of years that i've realized and it's weird. before things happened and i still generally got along with people ok and now it's just like the stupidest little things happen and my relationship with them is turned upside down and i'm sick of it! how much longer can i walk on eggshells watching everything i do just to make sure that i don't set that one little spark in them off? it's not always the easiest thing in the world.
i've also realized that God has a seriously blessed me with two specific people in my life that i couldn't be more grateful for! i dont deserve them at all but they're there everyday in front of me to help me and the comfort me if something is wrong. they barely ever let me down and even if i'm jerk to them that day or if i embarrass them by just being me, they simply love me for who i am. Today and yesterday i realized how much trust i have in these people. nothing hinders me from telling them what's on my mind and what exactly i'm thinking. sure there are those times when they can drive me crazy but in the end i'm so grateful for what i have with them. if i was given the oppurtunity i can guarantee that i wouldn't change it at all! They mean the world to me! I hope they know that! i pray that i'll only keep getting closer to them and that no matter what we will stay as we are...for as long as possible. i know that that's not always under my control, but if i have a say in it, that's what i would choose right now.
I'm blown away with the things that God is teaching me right now through lessons in my life. a lot of it plays along with patience and it'll be interesting to see where it leads me. i'm learning to hold my tongue and let out frustrations later because i know that in the long run that'll be so much more worth it. i can only pray that this is true.
so much has been happening like i said and this is only a small portion of them. i wish ihad the time to tell more but i need to go.
"IT'S NOT THE END, THE END OF THE WORLD - IT'S JUST A DAY..."
so much has changed in my life over the last couple of years that i've realized and it's weird. before things happened and i still generally got along with people ok and now it's just like the stupidest little things happen and my relationship with them is turned upside down and i'm sick of it! how much longer can i walk on eggshells watching everything i do just to make sure that i don't set that one little spark in them off? it's not always the easiest thing in the world.
i've also realized that God has a seriously blessed me with two specific people in my life that i couldn't be more grateful for! i dont deserve them at all but they're there everyday in front of me to help me and the comfort me if something is wrong. they barely ever let me down and even if i'm jerk to them that day or if i embarrass them by just being me, they simply love me for who i am. Today and yesterday i realized how much trust i have in these people. nothing hinders me from telling them what's on my mind and what exactly i'm thinking. sure there are those times when they can drive me crazy but in the end i'm so grateful for what i have with them. if i was given the oppurtunity i can guarantee that i wouldn't change it at all! They mean the world to me! I hope they know that! i pray that i'll only keep getting closer to them and that no matter what we will stay as we are...for as long as possible. i know that that's not always under my control, but if i have a say in it, that's what i would choose right now.
I'm blown away with the things that God is teaching me right now through lessons in my life. a lot of it plays along with patience and it'll be interesting to see where it leads me. i'm learning to hold my tongue and let out frustrations later because i know that in the long run that'll be so much more worth it. i can only pray that this is true.
so much has been happening like i said and this is only a small portion of them. i wish ihad the time to tell more but i need to go.
"IT'S NOT THE END, THE END OF THE WORLD - IT'S JUST A DAY..."