another day
it's 6:30 am right now and i'm up early for an NHS meeting at the highschool. I had some extra time so i thought i'd update alittle.
this week has already ben long. i have a new job and trust i am not in any way complaining about the job because i enjoy it, it's just a different thing to get used to. I have to stay up later now on nights that i work to get my homework done and then i wake up tired the next morning.
it seems right now like im pretty comfortable with myself - a place that i haven't been in a while. Although there are times when i wish things were different, I'm accepting them better than before and for me this is a good change. It doesn't bother me if i dont have a crap-load of makeup on before I leave for school - eyeliner seems to do me well for now. (of course for special occasions i go all out though) it's funny how it's so easy to look at yourself and not like who you are. Its like everytime you look in a mirror Satan's face is staring back at you telling you that you are ugly and you don't deserve to be of any value to anyone. I admit that there are times when it seems as though this is case. how do you get rid of it? sometimes it's as simple as simply telling yourself that you're wrong and God loves you just the way you are and other times it ruins my day and tears up my mind with every thougsht that i think that day. it's not always the easiest thing to deal with...but ever since myrtle beach it hasn't been that big of a problem.
If there's one thing I wish i could change sometimes though i think it would generally be the fact that I really wish Freeport, IL had a gorgeous sunrise or sunset. in myrtle beach just the beauty of those sunrises got my day going. they lifted my spirit so much. to be able to see Gods masterpiece right in front of me blew me away.
well its time to leave for the meeting.
God bless this day - its yours. drench me in your love
this week has already ben long. i have a new job and trust i am not in any way complaining about the job because i enjoy it, it's just a different thing to get used to. I have to stay up later now on nights that i work to get my homework done and then i wake up tired the next morning.
it seems right now like im pretty comfortable with myself - a place that i haven't been in a while. Although there are times when i wish things were different, I'm accepting them better than before and for me this is a good change. It doesn't bother me if i dont have a crap-load of makeup on before I leave for school - eyeliner seems to do me well for now. (of course for special occasions i go all out though) it's funny how it's so easy to look at yourself and not like who you are. Its like everytime you look in a mirror Satan's face is staring back at you telling you that you are ugly and you don't deserve to be of any value to anyone. I admit that there are times when it seems as though this is case. how do you get rid of it? sometimes it's as simple as simply telling yourself that you're wrong and God loves you just the way you are and other times it ruins my day and tears up my mind with every thougsht that i think that day. it's not always the easiest thing to deal with...but ever since myrtle beach it hasn't been that big of a problem.
If there's one thing I wish i could change sometimes though i think it would generally be the fact that I really wish Freeport, IL had a gorgeous sunrise or sunset. in myrtle beach just the beauty of those sunrises got my day going. they lifted my spirit so much. to be able to see Gods masterpiece right in front of me blew me away.
well its time to leave for the meeting.
God bless this day - its yours. drench me in your love