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soooo today i had my first swim team practice which was ok. we didnt swim because the pool was broken so we just worked out. how fun. so im gonna be sore tomorrow lol. and now angels mad at me because he forgot about my jazz band concert and instead made plans to play video games with his friends. makes no sense right? right! it doesnt! hes mad at me because he forgot about my concert! ive been working my butt off trying to learn how to play everything just right just so he can forget! it means so much to me that he just goes to the stupid concert but no! he would rather spend his time playing video games. And now all of a sudden hes all mad at me for crying all the time. whenever i cry he gets mad at me. isnt that stupid. since when is a boyfriend suppoused to get mad at his girlfriend for crying! honestly! that makes no sense to me at all. but i guess to him it does. I didnt do anything to him! i went to all of his jazz concerts last year and he cant even go to my first one! i wouldnt even be in the stupid class if it wasnt for him! grr! im so hurt right now and he wont even listen hes just all mad at me because he thinks that he has to do everything for me and i dont do anything for him! hes always saying "why does everything have to be about you" nothings about me! geez! theres not even a little speck about anything about me! he doesnt listen to my problems he doesnt care. when were on the phone he wont stop playing a video game for five seconds to talk to me. lately everything has been about playing this video game and everytime i get mad at him he turns my words around and makes everything seem like its my fault. so then i cant be mad at him about anything because whatever i say comes back to me because he does that! its so not right. im so mad. and hes mad at me because of the swim team! because he says that he will never get to spend time with me. like he ever wants to anyway. if i want to see him i have to basically throw myself at him. i have to beg him to let me go to his house or beg him to come over here. oh well. im so pissed.