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I know I've said it dozens of times but I love how music can just bring you back to certain times in your life. It can bring back either really good memories or sometimes not so great ones. The real point is that it can lift your mood. As horrible as it sounds I'm listening to a song and it totally reminds me of the horrible shady things I did when I was with Rob. I've got a giant grin on my face though. It's not because I'm happy about the way I treated him or think that they were wonderful things but I'm happy because I'm a better person and learned from my experiences. I realize how much I've grown as a person since that time in my life and feel like I am a better person now. Motherhood has of course also changed my outlook on just about everything. I still like to go out and have a good time, but I don't need to go out every weekend anymore. I am content to sit at home or spend time with friends and just chill-ax. I admit that I miss being in a relationship but with time that should come back into my life.
I actually went on a date on Saturday. I really like the guy and we spent 9 and a half hours together but it was slightly awkward. We didn't talk a whole lot which isn't typical for me. Normally you can't get me to shut up, but it's been so long since I've spent time alone with a guy I was interested in as something more than friends that I just clammed up. I don't know what to think about how things went, the night ended with only a hug. There wasn't much if any physical contact during the date which was a new experience for me. I'm used to guys being more forward with physical contact if they are interested but I'm going to not stress about it and just see what happens.
Parker is almost a year old. In just 3 weeks he'll be one!!!! Where has the time gone? He has been walking for over a month already, has 6 teeth and says mama, dada, anon-na (amanda) Bob, ya ya (grandma) and a few other things from time to time. I'm waiting for the day that he learns a naughty word. I don't know if I'll be upset or if I'm going to laugh about it. I just know that day will come sooner than I think.
I actually went on a date on Saturday. I really like the guy and we spent 9 and a half hours together but it was slightly awkward. We didn't talk a whole lot which isn't typical for me. Normally you can't get me to shut up, but it's been so long since I've spent time alone with a guy I was interested in as something more than friends that I just clammed up. I don't know what to think about how things went, the night ended with only a hug. There wasn't much if any physical contact during the date which was a new experience for me. I'm used to guys being more forward with physical contact if they are interested but I'm going to not stress about it and just see what happens.
Parker is almost a year old. In just 3 weeks he'll be one!!!! Where has the time gone? He has been walking for over a month already, has 6 teeth and says mama, dada, anon-na (amanda) Bob, ya ya (grandma) and a few other things from time to time. I'm waiting for the day that he learns a naughty word. I don't know if I'll be upset or if I'm going to laugh about it. I just know that day will come sooner than I think.