We're all looking for redemption, afraid to say the name
I do my best to not feel sorry for myself lately. I'm in the situation that I'm in because of choices I've made. It's nobody's fault but my own. I am the only person who can change things and I realize that. I know I've been complaining about not finding a job, about getting fat because of the baby and most recently my traffic ticket and I'm sorry for everyone that's had to read my LJ and deal with my bitcy-ness. But on the other hand it kills me when people complain to me every single day because they don't have that special person in their lives. They tell me how lonely they are and how much it sucks to be them. I typically don't mind listening to others problems, because so recently I've gone through alot of my own hardships and have vented to others. I guess I'm feeling rather selfish lately and feel like if I haven't answered your questions on how to find a woman or where to meet a decent one then I'm sorry I doubt I'll ever be able to answer those questions. I honestly know very little about women in general. I think that's obvious by the fact that I have 3 girlfriends and 300 male friends. I barely understand how my own mind works sometimes therefore I deem it impossible to understand other women. I myself have not had any sort of success in relationships, I obviously do something wrong and end them because I'm not satisfied with myself more so than anything. This isn't directed at anyone person in particular, just a combination of multiple people that I talk to. I'm not mad at anyone and I'm not saying that if you have a real problem that I don't want to hear about it. But being that I myself am not looking to date anyone at the moment because of the awkwardness of it I'm asking you to please leave your complaints and questions about how to snag a woman at the door. Thank you and goodnight.
I'm really getting back into metal music. I'm under the impression that instead of hearing "Hush Little Baby" or "Mary Had a Little Lamb" my poor child is going to want to hear Tool or Arch Enemy. I'm hoping that Type O Negative comes back into town on tour and that it's after I've had the baby so I can attend the concert. I miss going to concerts. My doctor says it's okay to go to a show if it's in a small venue and not alot of reverb. Well that pretty much limits my options. Oh well hopefully this alien will come out in two months and I'll be able to not worry constantly about doing something that will hurt it while I'm carrying it. Things just seem so much easier to take care of when you can actually see them.
I'm really getting back into metal music. I'm under the impression that instead of hearing "Hush Little Baby" or "Mary Had a Little Lamb" my poor child is going to want to hear Tool or Arch Enemy. I'm hoping that Type O Negative comes back into town on tour and that it's after I've had the baby so I can attend the concert. I miss going to concerts. My doctor says it's okay to go to a show if it's in a small venue and not alot of reverb. Well that pretty much limits my options. Oh well hopefully this alien will come out in two months and I'll be able to not worry constantly about doing something that will hurt it while I'm carrying it. Things just seem so much easier to take care of when you can actually see them.