I'm home....
Wow, I knew coming home was a bad idea. Yesterday the last thing I wanted to do was leave school to come home and just sit at Josh's house. But by the end of the night I wasn't ready to leave. So now I might stay until tomorrow. I don't know what I should do! I probably just need to suck it up and go back to school, because I know I'll be fine once I get there. I just feel so incredibly at home right now, and I like that. And then there's Ryan. At first everything was totally fine, I felt like he was my friend, but nothing else. But as the night went on and he was sitting next to me, it just felt wrong to know that I couldn't lean on him or hold his hand. The last thing I need right now is for those feelings to come back, because I'm trying to move on...and I've done a damn good job of it up to this point. That's another reason I should probably go home. No need to get hurt again for no reason. Anyways, I need to go take a shower and get dressed so I can go out to lunch with Sarah. Bye!!