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Yesterday I felt marvelous in a way that was different and refreshing. I woke up next to Matt, took a quick shower, kissed him before I left to run some errands at school. He wished me luck. Took care of some registration/book buying business at Rowan. I took my time and strolled through the sunny campus. It actually looked beautiful. I bought a new moleskine sketchbook. I came back to my apartment, woke up Matt, giggled for a half an hour. Walked him downstairs, jumped in the ball pit, made fun of Brett's haircut. Then I made myself lunch and spent the afternoon napping, reading, drawing, and watching tv. It just felt good. Matt and everyone went to get their tattoos, but I stayed at home. At first I was feeling good about that because it was their thing, but when I realized I was the only one not there I got bummed. I'm reading James Salter's "Light Years," and it got me thinking that being happy doesn't mean that you get everything you want, or that everything always goes your way. So it was cool, and anyway I kind of wanted to be alone. I'm a homebody, I like to make sure there is a clean living room for everyone to come back to, complete with snacks. Anyway yesterday I felt great and beautiful. Everyone came back after the tattoos and they were excited to tell me all about it. We watched Lost and ate pizza and snacks. It was the two hour season finale and it was sooooooo amazing. I was kind of mad at Lost this whole season but this made up for it. Crazy. It was the last night for us to spend with the group here. I really love all of them and I'm going to miss seeing them everyday. Just when you get really comfortable in a time and place things have to change. I suppose it is for the better, and all things will in fact be better. They are really special people and I can't wait to see them IRL. hah. So right now I am awake because I ate too much junk food yesterday so now I fell like crap. Today is a Goold day, and a packing day. Matt is in Annapolis with Blair. I am going back to sleep now.