forget all the mistakes my love, they won't be made again

[littlenitroxx]

i hate people that say "it really shows you who your true friends are" but i really feel if i ever had to say that cliched line, now would be the time. it's strange how the people you thought you were probably closest with don't even message you to see if you're ok or say a word to you after they know something major has happened in your life. but then people you thought wouldn't really care message out of the blue to say their sorry and buy you jonquils. of course there are those people that i thought i was closest with that are being incredible. but i always knew they would be. it's been a long month with no christian, no sleep, no free time, duke dying and realising i've lost a bunch of friends. anyway looking on the bright side i don't have enough time in the day to spend with friends that don't give a shit about me when it comes down to it. honours is insane but i think it's probably the best thing i've ever done. i've never learnt so much in such a short amount of time and i've gained so much confidence because i'm doing all these things i never thought i'd be able to. i'm being a good girl (after going out the past four nights in a row) and staying home on a saturday night and writing my thesis. my whole life (not for the first time) can be summed up by robert frost:
"The woods are lovely, dark and deep,
But I have promises to keep,
And miles to go before I sleep,
And miles to go before I sleep."