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[littlenitroxx]

so since being single for the first time in 2 and a half years my life has pretty much fallen into depravity. eating dinner at midnight. straight vodka shots by myself. taking too many prescription pain killers and feeling really happy until i start pouring corrosive chemicals all over the weigh scale and then fall asleep on the honours room couch. drinking way too much and then feeling way too sad and regretful and sleeping on the couch for the second night in a row. calling mailie and freya way too much. bandaids. going to uni for 8 hours and spending at least 3 hours of those having coffees with people. i have never hired so many movies in my life. i have so much free time even though i'm so busy. i am way too confused. i love christian so much. he's the best guy i know + best friend ever. but i think this is for the best in the long run on both our parts. if it's meant to be, right? i just feel so guilty that i couldn't make it work. i should have tried harder. bla bla bla. am sick of talking. thank you to my dearest friends for keeping me moderately sane. sebastian, paulie, freya, mailie, phil, ali, emelia, perdi and everyone in the lab. love love love. i love you all.

i'm sorry that i didn't tell a lot of people. i didn't tell anyone at all for a couple of days. i just felt awful. i still do. at least now i can steal 16 milk crates and get bruises. love you guys