eeeep
so, it's already august 1st and i feel like this summer has totally just passed me by. not to say i haven't enjoyed it--because i have, i just feel like it's already over and that's sad. ugh, it's like, remember when you were a kid and school years seemed so long and you couldn't wait for summer break? remember when the grown-ups used to say "time only moves faster as you get older?" well, i remember hearing that so much and i remember thinking to myself "yeah right." i couldn't possibly conceptualize, at that age, how time could move any faster because i was always in a hurry to grow up (like most kids!) and it just couldn't happen soon enough. now my days are depressingly divided into this habitual system of waking up, working, going to school and partying. i feel like it's all becoming so boring but, when i look into the future, i don't see anything outside of that system that would make me feel like less of a robot. i feel like i might be approaching an existential crisis. maybe i've just been conditioned to fail. GAH! pull me out of this sludge we call existence...someone, please. i want to swim with sharks.
connie, i miss you.