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here i am, waiting for chris to wake up so i can go to work. the powers above must be proud that i am becoming so organized.
jilly bean is almost a month old now. well, in another week. she is almost 4 weeks old tho. and it doesn't seem like that much time has passed. i love her. oddly, with her being just a baby, i already see so much of my personality in her. and she gives dirty looks! i feel good physically and mentally. i had a couple of VERY bad days at the beginning, revolving around jakie and missing him and feeling like i was neglecting him, but things are good now. i have been active again, walking and swimming. and jakie is just fine. it is mommy who is having the issues. he is great about everything, he is a huge help. i just have to teach him to be more gentle. he calls her baby sister.
at night time, i have an overwhelming sense of peace. jakie argues about bed time, but about 5 minutes after he says "i love you, good night, sweet dreams, dont let the bed bugs bite" i hear his heavy breathing of sleep. and on the other side of me, in the bassinet, i hear her stuffy snorting as she sleeps. the sound and silence of innocence. unconditional love.
i am going back to work just one or two days a week for a couple of hours. we are buying out the accounting portion of a medical consulting firm and work will be multiplied when i go back full time in july so i want to be sure we are in good order with our current clients. not to mention they paid me full salary on maternity so i want to be sure i am appreciative. it is a great thing to love your job, and the people you work with.
chris has been wonderful with the kids and a huge help to me in the last 3 weeks. things have fallen into place pretty well and i'm glad. we had some rocky moments during the pregnancy but all in all, we are still us. i'll complain about him tomorrow. :-) jakie has been loving the amount of time that chris is spending with him, fishing, swimming, etc., jakie is fishing his first tournament next month, i'm a bit nervous about him being that far offshore, but that is the main reason chris has spent so much time with him on his swimming. jakie jumps right in the deep end of the pool, no fears, and swims to the shallow end. chris placed 8th in his first tournament this season, so he is off to a good start.
i feel this is my white picket fence. a little backwards according to society, but who cares.
jilly bean is almost a month old now. well, in another week. she is almost 4 weeks old tho. and it doesn't seem like that much time has passed. i love her. oddly, with her being just a baby, i already see so much of my personality in her. and she gives dirty looks! i feel good physically and mentally. i had a couple of VERY bad days at the beginning, revolving around jakie and missing him and feeling like i was neglecting him, but things are good now. i have been active again, walking and swimming. and jakie is just fine. it is mommy who is having the issues. he is great about everything, he is a huge help. i just have to teach him to be more gentle. he calls her baby sister.
at night time, i have an overwhelming sense of peace. jakie argues about bed time, but about 5 minutes after he says "i love you, good night, sweet dreams, dont let the bed bugs bite" i hear his heavy breathing of sleep. and on the other side of me, in the bassinet, i hear her stuffy snorting as she sleeps. the sound and silence of innocence. unconditional love.
i am going back to work just one or two days a week for a couple of hours. we are buying out the accounting portion of a medical consulting firm and work will be multiplied when i go back full time in july so i want to be sure we are in good order with our current clients. not to mention they paid me full salary on maternity so i want to be sure i am appreciative. it is a great thing to love your job, and the people you work with.
chris has been wonderful with the kids and a huge help to me in the last 3 weeks. things have fallen into place pretty well and i'm glad. we had some rocky moments during the pregnancy but all in all, we are still us. i'll complain about him tomorrow. :-) jakie has been loving the amount of time that chris is spending with him, fishing, swimming, etc., jakie is fishing his first tournament next month, i'm a bit nervous about him being that far offshore, but that is the main reason chris has spent so much time with him on his swimming. jakie jumps right in the deep end of the pool, no fears, and swims to the shallow end. chris placed 8th in his first tournament this season, so he is off to a good start.
i feel this is my white picket fence. a little backwards according to society, but who cares.