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So things have been going pretty well lately.
Things are going Great with Matt, Been hanging out with Steve a lot of doing the usual. He had a date with my mom's secretary and they both really like one-another, so thats looking hopeful, Steve is a great guy.
I'm having a really hard time thinking of something to do for Matt's Birthday, I mean hes already done so many romantic and generous things for me-- NYC, dinners, the earrings at christmas, letting all my friends into Mexican Radio and drink for free... its kind of insane... how can I possibly to do anything as good as all that?
Its really bugging me.. his birthday is in about 3 weeks ( jan 31)
He took me to Wasabi monday night and I had my first experience with Saki... I drank a whole bottle ( almost) by myself... it made my stomach feel funny but I really like the food there and he ordered about everything on the menu and made me taste it all. ( he spent a year in Japan so his knowledge and chopsticks skills are pretty intimidating.. I on the other hand had to ask for a fork :-)
We went back to his bosses house ( he house sits for them a couple times a month) His bosses are very eccentric rich people, they have 6 cats which are about 20 pounds overweight each and extremely territorial. They collect Catholic relics ( even thought they're not religious) and they bought two of those Catskill Cat sculptures that are in their front hall) The house is amazing old, winding staircases and feels FULL of ghosts ( it has slave quarters in the basement) hahah
We drank wine and tried to watch kung fu hustle ( because its like my favorite movie and it seemed fitting after wasabi) but we both didn't really feel like finishing it.
He wanted to go see Sweeney Todd yesterday but I had a lot of Law school stuff to do.. so i had to turn him down. Boo :-(
I hate doing that, But i think its not healthy to spend every day together either. I don't ever want to get sick of him or take him for granted because I get him all the time.. and I definitely don't want the opposite to happen!!!
I hate when I don't hear from him... it drives me crazy.. but Its also good, because I know I really like him in that I miss him every day I don't see him, hopefully he's feeling the same.
That being said, Law School Application Process is TEDIOUS hard work. Law school is going to suck, isn't it? Oh well, 3 years and then I can be an independent woman for the rest of my life-- I'll never have to rely on a man or my parents or anyone.. I'll have a degree to fall back on, My cousin is so unhappy with her boyfriend and she can't leave him because they share a car ( that he pays for) and she only waitresses ( not enough $ to support a baby) and I NEVER EVER EVER want to be in her position.
I'm not, in the least looking forward to getting through these next couple of months in Geneseo-- I am however excited to see Nick again ( I'm aware that sounds REAL seedy) But I realize lately that I miss him, don't get me wrong.. matt is amazing perfect and I'm totally into him. Im NOT lonely or nostalgic about Nick... I just miss him as a person...I'm aware that he wasn't the man for me at all.. that there were FAR FAR FAR too many obstacles in our relationship and that it would've ended up poorly no matter how hard either of us had tried, that being said, I don't think hes a bad guy, and I care about him tons. He just wasn't the guy for me, and god knows I wasn't the girl for him. We had different Ideals and we never really knew the right was to love the other.
It makes me sad to think of people in Geneseo I love that after this semster I'll never see again... but i guess this is growing up.
SO this year I can look forward to:
GRADUATING UNDERGRAD!!!!
Starting Law school :-/
Living alone ?
Being with Matt
Living in albany or boston
Having a better body than ever before ( not to toot my own horn but I've been running like a mo fo and lately I've been looking in the mirror naked and not recognizing my own body)
What? too much information? hahahahhahahaha
Things are going Great with Matt, Been hanging out with Steve a lot of doing the usual. He had a date with my mom's secretary and they both really like one-another, so thats looking hopeful, Steve is a great guy.
I'm having a really hard time thinking of something to do for Matt's Birthday, I mean hes already done so many romantic and generous things for me-- NYC, dinners, the earrings at christmas, letting all my friends into Mexican Radio and drink for free... its kind of insane... how can I possibly to do anything as good as all that?
Its really bugging me.. his birthday is in about 3 weeks ( jan 31)
He took me to Wasabi monday night and I had my first experience with Saki... I drank a whole bottle ( almost) by myself... it made my stomach feel funny but I really like the food there and he ordered about everything on the menu and made me taste it all. ( he spent a year in Japan so his knowledge and chopsticks skills are pretty intimidating.. I on the other hand had to ask for a fork :-)
We went back to his bosses house ( he house sits for them a couple times a month) His bosses are very eccentric rich people, they have 6 cats which are about 20 pounds overweight each and extremely territorial. They collect Catholic relics ( even thought they're not religious) and they bought two of those Catskill Cat sculptures that are in their front hall) The house is amazing old, winding staircases and feels FULL of ghosts ( it has slave quarters in the basement) hahah
We drank wine and tried to watch kung fu hustle ( because its like my favorite movie and it seemed fitting after wasabi) but we both didn't really feel like finishing it.
He wanted to go see Sweeney Todd yesterday but I had a lot of Law school stuff to do.. so i had to turn him down. Boo :-(
I hate doing that, But i think its not healthy to spend every day together either. I don't ever want to get sick of him or take him for granted because I get him all the time.. and I definitely don't want the opposite to happen!!!
I hate when I don't hear from him... it drives me crazy.. but Its also good, because I know I really like him in that I miss him every day I don't see him, hopefully he's feeling the same.
That being said, Law School Application Process is TEDIOUS hard work. Law school is going to suck, isn't it? Oh well, 3 years and then I can be an independent woman for the rest of my life-- I'll never have to rely on a man or my parents or anyone.. I'll have a degree to fall back on, My cousin is so unhappy with her boyfriend and she can't leave him because they share a car ( that he pays for) and she only waitresses ( not enough $ to support a baby) and I NEVER EVER EVER want to be in her position.
I'm not, in the least looking forward to getting through these next couple of months in Geneseo-- I am however excited to see Nick again ( I'm aware that sounds REAL seedy) But I realize lately that I miss him, don't get me wrong.. matt is amazing perfect and I'm totally into him. Im NOT lonely or nostalgic about Nick... I just miss him as a person...I'm aware that he wasn't the man for me at all.. that there were FAR FAR FAR too many obstacles in our relationship and that it would've ended up poorly no matter how hard either of us had tried, that being said, I don't think hes a bad guy, and I care about him tons. He just wasn't the guy for me, and god knows I wasn't the girl for him. We had different Ideals and we never really knew the right was to love the other.
It makes me sad to think of people in Geneseo I love that after this semster I'll never see again... but i guess this is growing up.
SO this year I can look forward to:
GRADUATING UNDERGRAD!!!!
Starting Law school :-/
Living alone ?
Being with Matt
Living in albany or boston
Having a better body than ever before ( not to toot my own horn but I've been running like a mo fo and lately I've been looking in the mirror naked and not recognizing my own body)
What? too much information? hahahahhahahaha