every new beginning comes with some other beginnings end.
this seems to be the theme for the whole year.
the problem is that i dont seem to realize whats ending.
field hockey is over
parents marraige...over
swimming...well almost over.
pretty soon the year is going to blow right by me and
highschool will be over.
i just can't come to terms with the fact that after this summer I will never officially live in
my warm cuddly nest of a bedroom ever agian.
its a mess right now; and in the spirit of not letting my impulses get to me,
i kinda like it this way...even though I can't find ANYTHING...
i got to thinking about endings alot today because i realize that I need to come to terms with the fact
that swimming could quite possibly end tommorow, & I will never swim competitively agian.
NEVER thought i'd say this but it is kinda sad. its something that has always been a part of my life
and i think i was just starting to get a hang of the 100 breast.
as hopefull as I am about winning tomorrows meet, and as nervous as i am
i will still have to deal with the same thing on sunday at finals.
all else being said; i think we've had our ups and downs, but its been a long haul
and i'm glad we came out as friends.
the problem is that i dont seem to realize whats ending.
field hockey is over
parents marraige...over
swimming...well almost over.
pretty soon the year is going to blow right by me and
highschool will be over.
i just can't come to terms with the fact that after this summer I will never officially live in
my warm cuddly nest of a bedroom ever agian.
its a mess right now; and in the spirit of not letting my impulses get to me,
i kinda like it this way...even though I can't find ANYTHING...
i got to thinking about endings alot today because i realize that I need to come to terms with the fact
that swimming could quite possibly end tommorow, & I will never swim competitively agian.
NEVER thought i'd say this but it is kinda sad. its something that has always been a part of my life
and i think i was just starting to get a hang of the 100 breast.
as hopefull as I am about winning tomorrows meet, and as nervous as i am
i will still have to deal with the same thing on sunday at finals.
all else being said; i think we've had our ups and downs, but its been a long haul
and i'm glad we came out as friends.