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pretty bummed.
i have a couple of friends going through stuff, and i am listening and trying to be a good friend but i mostly just want to run away and cry and the guy i rely on for semi-not-really-but-occasional emotional cuddling isn't responding and i think i know why and i just kind of need a hug or a cat that won't spread granola all over my bed.
i am also going to start a program at work. anyone who asks/teases about my dates or lack thereof must set me up with someone. i'm tired of it, just a little bit. if my love life (rather the lack thereof) is the exciting news at work then we need to get acquired or something. just... something. i love how the answer to "no, no dates at the moment" is always something along the lines of, "yeah, i don't know many who could hang with you." intending of course (or as i will believe it to be) that i am "too special", "too cool", or "just not the regular sort of gal" to actually get a date. granted, the people mentioned as the kind that could hang with me are people i have either friend and/or hearts crushes on, but still! i begin to suspect that it has become more of a "hmm, just a little too crazy to subject my friends to her..." kind of deal. whatever. fuck it. i sort of just want someone to come home to. or at least someone who will pick up my calls once in a while.
bah!
i have a couple of friends going through stuff, and i am listening and trying to be a good friend but i mostly just want to run away and cry and the guy i rely on for semi-not-really-but-occasional emotional cuddling isn't responding and i think i know why and i just kind of need a hug or a cat that won't spread granola all over my bed.
i am also going to start a program at work. anyone who asks/teases about my dates or lack thereof must set me up with someone. i'm tired of it, just a little bit. if my love life (rather the lack thereof) is the exciting news at work then we need to get acquired or something. just... something. i love how the answer to "no, no dates at the moment" is always something along the lines of, "yeah, i don't know many who could hang with you." intending of course (or as i will believe it to be) that i am "too special", "too cool", or "just not the regular sort of gal" to actually get a date. granted, the people mentioned as the kind that could hang with me are people i have either friend and/or hearts crushes on, but still! i begin to suspect that it has become more of a "hmm, just a little too crazy to subject my friends to her..." kind of deal. whatever. fuck it. i sort of just want someone to come home to. or at least someone who will pick up my calls once in a while.
bah!