A storm of Confusion....
Ok so the storm last night-scared me terribly. I don't mind lightning, I don't mind rain, I don't mind wind. But good lord it was so loud it woke me up at 1:00am. I sleep through just about everything at night. And it frickin woke me up! And then it was so loud and there was lightining flashes every three seconds(yes i counted and averaged it out) and I could not fall asleep until it died down.
So our barn is flooded. We have drainage system but Twister thought it would be fun to break it. The arena is like 1 1/2 feet of mud. Baby is in awe over it still. He spent an hour this morning just walking around and looking at it. Then he kept taking off running and bucking wildy and slipping through the mud. It was so cute. =)
Yesterday was so uneventless. Today will most likely be uneventless. Especially since someone took their ever precious time in telling me that we were working out this morning and now won't pick up their phone! Agh! Oh well maybe I'll just get someone to go with me tomorrow. Maybe I could convince Grant to go with me since he's always at work when everyone else is working out.
I have officially decided that I am horrible at making decisions and I lack a lot common sense and I am frickin 15 and it sucks! I'm really not the brightest crayon in the box in the first place but the fact that I'm so young makes me 3x the idiot. And no, no one needs to agree with me on that. I don't know where I stand in life. It's a horrible feeling to not know what to do. I hate being confused and feeling helpless and feeling as if the weight of everything is resting on me and I every move I make could possibly smother me. I don't like knowing that my decisions are important to anyone. Then I really have trouble deciding. I always screw up my decisions too. I'd rather have everything be simple. Then again-what would be the fun in that?
Church is tonight. I don't even want to go. I just want to sit around and comtemplate what to do with the mess I've made so many things. I suppose I could do that in church too.
>Ridiculously Confused<