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life today..
ahhhhh
if i said what i wanted to on here..
it would get back to the person im
talking about. but i can say this
much... i regret what happened between
us.
change..
everyone seems scared of change these days..
why are you thinking about it so much?
i cant wait for things to change around
here. i guess my change is all for the better
though. why is everything else changing w/
everyone?
school..
well i havent been there in like a week,
and when i was i was skipping so theres
not much to talk about expect for the
secret places you dont know about all over
the school. and how much the freaking hall
monitors walk around, i wonder why they are
still fat?
friends..
old friends are back like new. and greater
then ever. im looking more towards my friends
then anywone else include my b/f. i guess there's
just no trust for no one these days. not even
my own parents. i hope my friends dont disappoint
me too.
people..
there are these people, that i talk to alot,
and i think they are becoming a big part of
things. im looking at things differently now.
drugs are stupid, i was stupid. drinking pointless,
i just killed my freaking liver. following the
stupid people that led me to where i am now
....cant even explain everything i lost because
of 'em.
boyfriends..
theres a secret im holding about mine. there are
secrets im holding against him. there i are
secrets he dont want me to know that i've found
out. i've had a whole change of heart with things.
they're just more to deal with, and less that you
get out of. why are they so hard to leave behind
though? i mean, once they're gone.. there's someone
new. so why do i care? tell me that.
messages to people that i cant say to their faces..
-i really like you, and im scared if i wait too long,
and i stay here with nothing, you which could be everything
will be gone.
-your one of the best people in my life. what would i do
with out you? i want you to think of me how i think of you.
everything there is to life.
-i want you to let me go. just dont think about me. have fun
with your life. dont fucking make me the world because im not.
im not that great, im not nice to you, i dont care that you
dont know my secrets. its terrible. why dont you realize it and let
me go.
-your someon that needs to learn that you are a mistake. you've
gotten chances to learn your lesson and you still have the same
problems. why dont you think aobut what you doing and actually
have some fucking respect for people.
-your are turning into someone you use to dispise. why are you
do it to yourself? can you look in the mirror at night when your
all stoned up and thinking about what you just did with the person
in your room? do you think that other people may be talking, thinking,
hating. and its you thats on their minds.
there you go. everything that just hit me in less then 5 minutes.
your message is in there. if i am a part of you life, your there.
so dont read and think that your not that person, and i would never
say that about you. because...
i just did.
ahhhhh
if i said what i wanted to on here..
it would get back to the person im
talking about. but i can say this
much... i regret what happened between
us.
change..
everyone seems scared of change these days..
why are you thinking about it so much?
i cant wait for things to change around
here. i guess my change is all for the better
though. why is everything else changing w/
everyone?
school..
well i havent been there in like a week,
and when i was i was skipping so theres
not much to talk about expect for the
secret places you dont know about all over
the school. and how much the freaking hall
monitors walk around, i wonder why they are
still fat?
friends..
old friends are back like new. and greater
then ever. im looking more towards my friends
then anywone else include my b/f. i guess there's
just no trust for no one these days. not even
my own parents. i hope my friends dont disappoint
me too.
people..
there are these people, that i talk to alot,
and i think they are becoming a big part of
things. im looking at things differently now.
drugs are stupid, i was stupid. drinking pointless,
i just killed my freaking liver. following the
stupid people that led me to where i am now
....cant even explain everything i lost because
of 'em.
boyfriends..
theres a secret im holding about mine. there are
secrets im holding against him. there i are
secrets he dont want me to know that i've found
out. i've had a whole change of heart with things.
they're just more to deal with, and less that you
get out of. why are they so hard to leave behind
though? i mean, once they're gone.. there's someone
new. so why do i care? tell me that.
messages to people that i cant say to their faces..
-i really like you, and im scared if i wait too long,
and i stay here with nothing, you which could be everything
will be gone.
-your one of the best people in my life. what would i do
with out you? i want you to think of me how i think of you.
everything there is to life.
-i want you to let me go. just dont think about me. have fun
with your life. dont fucking make me the world because im not.
im not that great, im not nice to you, i dont care that you
dont know my secrets. its terrible. why dont you realize it and let
me go.
-your someon that needs to learn that you are a mistake. you've
gotten chances to learn your lesson and you still have the same
problems. why dont you think aobut what you doing and actually
have some fucking respect for people.
-your are turning into someone you use to dispise. why are you
do it to yourself? can you look in the mirror at night when your
all stoned up and thinking about what you just did with the person
in your room? do you think that other people may be talking, thinking,
hating. and its you thats on their minds.
there you go. everything that just hit me in less then 5 minutes.
your message is in there. if i am a part of you life, your there.
so dont read and think that your not that person, and i would never
say that about you. because...
i just did.