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Serusly, I'm freakin losing my mind. My whole family is starting to crumble around me. This is supposed to be the happiest freakin time of my life. Pssshhhht. Yeah, right. I find out that my mom probably isn't coming to my wedding- fine, whatever. Its her choice. Then Dannys mother decides to take everyone out to dinner (my famiily included). So, I call my father and tell him. He's like, "Oh that neighborhood is drug infested." uh... he lives like 2 minutes down the street and we're in freakin newbedford- everywhere is drug infested. So, he probably wont come to the "reception" I'm having. I'm so ready to pack up this house and move to where no one can find me. There's not much keeping me here. Danny isn't working, and there isn't any work around here that he "wants" to do. So, whatever. It's rediculous, now. I'm so frustrated. You know, its like, traditionally the brides family is supposed to pay for a wedding. I've decided to not a huge wedding, acting like I'm all keen on it. When, as a matter of fact, it's really bothering me in a way. I've come from wanting to have a 10K wedding to me settling for something that danny wanted. only, now, its like, dannys mum is inviting WAY more family than we were going ot orignally have. I wasn't even planning on inviting my grandparents or my best friend. So, now, screw that, Jackies freakin coming. I'm thinking about inviting Nicole, too. But, I really don't have the $ to pay for everyone, which is exactly why I wasn't inviting anyone. BUT, if tradition came into play, my dad should be paying for everything, anyway. It's not like Crystal is going to get married and Julie is 11, so he's not gonna have that to pay for. No, he's spending a whole bunch of $ on a freakin 30th b day for Crystal. Whatever. I don't care if my family comes or not anymore. It's their loss. It's gonna put a huge rift in our relationship, but whatever. ARRRRGGGG!