i wanna be where you are
...uhhh. i had full intent to write something meaningful in this journal. but now, i realize..that it's something i have to keep for myself. but i still wanna talk about it....but i don't wanna make it private. wtf am i thinking?! it's too late at night...
ok. so i lost 3 lbs. last week. let's see what i can do this week *rubs hands together* i'm going to be strict on the carbs and excercise more. damn atkins. i'm eating an apple though *shakes fist* if i don't eat something sweet- i'll crack- i know i will!!
ok. so i guess that people are telling me that it's bad that i like to plan out my meals and count calories. I'M NOT ANOREXIC!!! does it look like i am?!?!? Didn't think so...
ok. here's the screwy part though. whenever i step on the scale (sundays usually, but only once a week!), and i lose weight..i get waaayy too happy. like, way too excited. and then i think of *him*. HOW FUCKED UP IS THAT?!?!? Really fucked up, I know. Oh well. At least I know it's screwed up, right?
Does anyone wanna hear my Christmas wih list? haha. ok, here goes...
1.) Dooney & Burke IT Bag. ^_^
2.) Silver bangle bracelet from Something Silver
3.) Pumas or Nikes of my choice
and THAT'S IT!!!
I already know my mom and aunt are probably gonna get me all of that. I'm such an easy girl to shop for!
ok. so i lost 3 lbs. last week. let's see what i can do this week *rubs hands together* i'm going to be strict on the carbs and excercise more. damn atkins. i'm eating an apple though *shakes fist* if i don't eat something sweet- i'll crack- i know i will!!
ok. so i guess that people are telling me that it's bad that i like to plan out my meals and count calories. I'M NOT ANOREXIC!!! does it look like i am?!?!? Didn't think so...
ok. here's the screwy part though. whenever i step on the scale (sundays usually, but only once a week!), and i lose weight..i get waaayy too happy. like, way too excited. and then i think of *him*. HOW FUCKED UP IS THAT?!?!? Really fucked up, I know. Oh well. At least I know it's screwed up, right?
Does anyone wanna hear my Christmas wih list? haha. ok, here goes...
1.) Dooney & Burke IT Bag. ^_^
2.) Silver bangle bracelet from Something Silver
3.) Pumas or Nikes of my choice
and THAT'S IT!!!
I already know my mom and aunt are probably gonna get me all of that. I'm such an easy girl to shop for!