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So Michelle and her three kids came up to see us. I had plans to go shopping with Bailey, so they got there while we were still gone. Derek towers over me now....but I hold the fact that I am still older over his head....yes, he's taller, but I am still 12 days older. I didnt get a chance to talk to andrew yesterday or so far today...but anywho....
I went for a drive with my dad today into Barrington, and the whole time all he did was talk about my mom....and not even good stuff. All her ever does is complain about how their marriage is just getting worse and worse. I try to spend as much time as I can with the two of them because I know that there is a chance that they will get divorced and I wont be abdle to see one of them like at all. I started crying and then my dad got mad and started asking me why I was crying andstuff and I told him that I'm sick of hearing about they relationship. And to tell you the truth...I really am....
Flat out....hearing them talk about how things are getting worse and that they just cant make it work is pathetic. I feel so horrible that 2 grown people, who have been together for like 23 years, cannot get along. All they ever do is bicker and talk badly about one another, my dad more so than my mom. And living with them like that is just tearing me up inside. I hate the fact that already, my dad has spent nights on the side of the road, sleeping in his car, because he just cant stand being with my mother. But, my dad is just as much at blame as she is. My dad is very ignorant and sexist...and everytime he gets into and argue or fight...with any of us...he is right. And I'm tired of that too. Just trying to talk to him is like murder...honestly, its really almost that bad. He continually cuts us off and yells at us because we are the one who is wrong. It is never him...and that just makes things even more stressful. I hate talking to him....I dont even get to talk....and he always yells....but "I Never raised my voice" is all he ever says. and when you try to tell him that he's mistaken he sais "Are you calling me a liar?" and he gets all offensive and even more angry and then just yells some more.
Anyways....so I told him that I was sick of hearing about it and hes like "I dont blame you, you are completely right..." and yet....he still jsut kept talking about it on the way home...and I just kept crying. I'm so tired of it....
Oh, and my dad is a complete idiot. He kicked Erin out of the house, but shes back and she pays rent. He gave her Baileys room, because Bailey got an apartment, but now she's back because her and Diane hate their roomate. My dad wont give Bailey the spare room, they sleep in the spare room, wont give Bailey the room thats supposed to be theirs, and then tell her that she cant have the spare room because they are turning it into a sitting room. Erin is livid because she doesnt want Bailey to sleep in her room and then my dad says "Well Erin hasn't gotten the point...its not her house." So Bailey is living out of boxes...in my room. My room is the smallest in the house, aside from the twins room. I told Bailey that she can sleep on my bed...so I get the floor. Baily has been here like 2 days and she is already sick of it. She cant stand my parents either....So she has been staying at Pats house back in Somerville. Shes basically doing that because first off, she has no place to stay really, and if she stays here, she has to pay rent. Second, shes in love with Pat. Third, she has a car and can do whatever it is that she wants. I am so totally jealous of her...honestly, and I usually dont get jealous. I just cant wait....if my dad tries to make me pay rent when I turn 18....then he is just dumb. And both my parents know that as soon as I can... am OUT the door. I hate this house, family, town, and the horrible life that I have here.
I am a teenager and I've been a mother for the past 4 years. Maybe even 5. My parents keep telling me to get a job but they dont realize that to have a job, I need to get there, and to get to my job, I need my license, which requires money, which I dont have, because I dont have a job. And if we were still in Somerville this wouldnt be a problem because I could just take the bus to my job...or WALK...can you believe that? But my favorite is.... "Elizabeth just get a job." "Mom, remember? I cant, I have no way of getting there." "Then walk." "Mom, its fucking Strafford...if I walked anywhere it would take me fucking days." that isnt true, but the two closest stores are Blue Loon and Issinglass, and they are a mile and a half away. Issinglass doesnt even hire people unless they are 18 because the sell beer and ciggarettes. Blue Loon, its 16, but that store is like the size of my friggen living room....and I dont want to work there. Plus, if that was my last choice, I cant even work there this year because I dont turn 16 until July 31st, and that would give me about 15 days to work until i go back to school. Gay....GAY GAY GAY. I hate using that word....but seriously, what else can i say? Its total bull shit. If I worked anywhere outside of Strafford, I would have to walk anywhere between 8 miles and 14 miles....yeah....totally NOT going to do that. My mom told me to tutor kids....HAHAHA I have ADHD and cant even do my own damn work, let alone help someone else with theirs. lol.....
Well I'm done "venting" for now...and I feel bad for anyone who reads this....its jsut bull shit and a waste of your time....but then again, not many people read it anyways...so maybe I am just wasting MY time...whatever I have nothing better to do....and Im not allowed out on New Years Eve because "Its a drinking holiday, Elizabeth, and if I were to let you out tonight, I would not be doing my job as a parent which is to keep you safe." FUCK YOU DAD....you're just RUINING my life.....Hopefully they let me go bowling next weekend....which I doubt...because my mom sat on me and I called her "Thunder Thighs" damn I'm dumb.
I went for a drive with my dad today into Barrington, and the whole time all he did was talk about my mom....and not even good stuff. All her ever does is complain about how their marriage is just getting worse and worse. I try to spend as much time as I can with the two of them because I know that there is a chance that they will get divorced and I wont be abdle to see one of them like at all. I started crying and then my dad got mad and started asking me why I was crying andstuff and I told him that I'm sick of hearing about they relationship. And to tell you the truth...I really am....
Flat out....hearing them talk about how things are getting worse and that they just cant make it work is pathetic. I feel so horrible that 2 grown people, who have been together for like 23 years, cannot get along. All they ever do is bicker and talk badly about one another, my dad more so than my mom. And living with them like that is just tearing me up inside. I hate the fact that already, my dad has spent nights on the side of the road, sleeping in his car, because he just cant stand being with my mother. But, my dad is just as much at blame as she is. My dad is very ignorant and sexist...and everytime he gets into and argue or fight...with any of us...he is right. And I'm tired of that too. Just trying to talk to him is like murder...honestly, its really almost that bad. He continually cuts us off and yells at us because we are the one who is wrong. It is never him...and that just makes things even more stressful. I hate talking to him....I dont even get to talk....and he always yells....but "I Never raised my voice" is all he ever says. and when you try to tell him that he's mistaken he sais "Are you calling me a liar?" and he gets all offensive and even more angry and then just yells some more.
Anyways....so I told him that I was sick of hearing about it and hes like "I dont blame you, you are completely right..." and yet....he still jsut kept talking about it on the way home...and I just kept crying. I'm so tired of it....
Oh, and my dad is a complete idiot. He kicked Erin out of the house, but shes back and she pays rent. He gave her Baileys room, because Bailey got an apartment, but now she's back because her and Diane hate their roomate. My dad wont give Bailey the spare room, they sleep in the spare room, wont give Bailey the room thats supposed to be theirs, and then tell her that she cant have the spare room because they are turning it into a sitting room. Erin is livid because she doesnt want Bailey to sleep in her room and then my dad says "Well Erin hasn't gotten the point...its not her house." So Bailey is living out of boxes...in my room. My room is the smallest in the house, aside from the twins room. I told Bailey that she can sleep on my bed...so I get the floor. Baily has been here like 2 days and she is already sick of it. She cant stand my parents either....So she has been staying at Pats house back in Somerville. Shes basically doing that because first off, she has no place to stay really, and if she stays here, she has to pay rent. Second, shes in love with Pat. Third, she has a car and can do whatever it is that she wants. I am so totally jealous of her...honestly, and I usually dont get jealous. I just cant wait....if my dad tries to make me pay rent when I turn 18....then he is just dumb. And both my parents know that as soon as I can... am OUT the door. I hate this house, family, town, and the horrible life that I have here.
I am a teenager and I've been a mother for the past 4 years. Maybe even 5. My parents keep telling me to get a job but they dont realize that to have a job, I need to get there, and to get to my job, I need my license, which requires money, which I dont have, because I dont have a job. And if we were still in Somerville this wouldnt be a problem because I could just take the bus to my job...or WALK...can you believe that? But my favorite is.... "Elizabeth just get a job." "Mom, remember? I cant, I have no way of getting there." "Then walk." "Mom, its fucking Strafford...if I walked anywhere it would take me fucking days." that isnt true, but the two closest stores are Blue Loon and Issinglass, and they are a mile and a half away. Issinglass doesnt even hire people unless they are 18 because the sell beer and ciggarettes. Blue Loon, its 16, but that store is like the size of my friggen living room....and I dont want to work there. Plus, if that was my last choice, I cant even work there this year because I dont turn 16 until July 31st, and that would give me about 15 days to work until i go back to school. Gay....GAY GAY GAY. I hate using that word....but seriously, what else can i say? Its total bull shit. If I worked anywhere outside of Strafford, I would have to walk anywhere between 8 miles and 14 miles....yeah....totally NOT going to do that. My mom told me to tutor kids....HAHAHA I have ADHD and cant even do my own damn work, let alone help someone else with theirs. lol.....
Well I'm done "venting" for now...and I feel bad for anyone who reads this....its jsut bull shit and a waste of your time....but then again, not many people read it anyways...so maybe I am just wasting MY time...whatever I have nothing better to do....and Im not allowed out on New Years Eve because "Its a drinking holiday, Elizabeth, and if I were to let you out tonight, I would not be doing my job as a parent which is to keep you safe." FUCK YOU DAD....you're just RUINING my life.....Hopefully they let me go bowling next weekend....which I doubt...because my mom sat on me and I called her "Thunder Thighs" damn I'm dumb.