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Holey moley mother of the lord! As if things weren't bad enough! So last night something happened that i regret so fucking much because i found something out today that makes what i did last night a fucking disgusting and horrible thing. I feel awkward, and repulisve and so incredibly fucked over by someone who i really care about. And i hate being in this position. and i hate feeling like shit for something that i had no control over. It seems like the story of my life lately is loss of control Well, i guess the truth is that i never had control in the first place (damn damn damn.) There's times when things go your way and times when they spiral way to the boundaries of the things you even thought were possible happening in your life. This blows. It irrevocably blows. I want peace and happiness. Now!